好无聊啊

这个世界没有什么新东西可以萌得了吗？！

终于进入荒芜期吗？

anime - samurai champloo again

watched the last two episodes at Jacky Mimi's place. English voice actor.

next year there will be OVA movie of it. looking forward to it.

it is still awesome.

book-御座血

从尧幽禁舜野死，到东周列国一路黑暗权谋，至千年以下点点滴滴的历史血痕……我们有着人类文明最高级的姿态。无法欣喜，却独一无二。感触至深的却是贤丞义士承担黑暗的精魂气魄。

"大史书曰：“崔杼弑其君。”崔子杀之。其弟嗣书而死者，二人。其弟又书， 乃舍之。南史氏闻大史尽死，执简以往。闻既书矣，乃还。"

崔杼设计杀死齐庄公之后，太史在国家史书中写：崔杼弑其君。崔杼大怒，杀死了太史。太史的两个弟弟接着这样写，一并被杀。太史的又一个弟弟还是这样写，崔杼无奈，只好免其死。南史听说太史尽死的消息，“执简以往“。途中听说史官已经如实记录此事，才回去。

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史官是家族事业吗？

i am wondering

can i get a job in China???

i learned lots of useless things here..what can i do if i go back to China?

i want my freedom, then i can do something more.

i want to see clear my path, and make something happen on my own term...

i hate my life wave is always longer than the others, and the orbit of my planet is always larger than many others'. it's a waste, and what would it accomplish?

金星水瓶，月亮水瓶，太阳魔羯.

也许这就是喜欢仙流，写仙道顺手的原因？——自我特质的投射和认同。

“If you press me to say why I loved him, can say no more than it was because he was he and I was I.“

Devil's Trill 恶魔颤音

old post.
美丽这种感觉，说不定只是自我中心的产物。

肌肤震颤，内腑激荡，甚至瞳孔张大，下巴掉在地上，都只是个人所经历，也无法用语言文字传达的感受。别人也许完全感觉不到，也完全无法理解。

无论多么想要分享，最终也只是一个人的真实，独自的和解而已。

美丽的感觉，失望，等待，怨恨，真或者虚假……想要守护，想要得到，都是自我中心的东西，大概这样说的话，利己主义也没有什么问题吧，为了想要活这，只好这样了……

所以，同样的东西，完全不同的认知，是最适合这世界的旋涡，争论，不屑，或者战争也是产物罢了。

可是还是会生气，会觉得很恨。

（"那种感觉……不叫生气。悲哀，那叫做悲哀。"——铁之助是这样对山崎丞说的吧。）

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[恶魔颤音]

我所听到的……

一切都是独自的。（不喜欢这里的钢琴伴奏，多余）反抗，挣扎与抗辩，鼓起了勇气却又瞬间消沉，散开又凝集的心愿，持守着美丽却又那么不甘愿，几度反复的想要挣脱却失去方向，还有恨意，更多的是天地无法存放的遗憾，憾恨，很多的憾恨，很多的不甘心，还有美丽，优雅高贵的美丽，随便的话就可以坚持的真实可触的美丽甘甜，却成为想要舍弃的，想要打破的，于是被撕开，敲打得到破裂的美丽不和谐，但是又很迟疑，心里很矛盾，心里的声音分成两个，跟自己挣扎和抗辩，似乎又是对世间的争辩，于是很忧伤，所谓的力量与勇气也只是剩下瞬间消亡的无力感，震颤，心弦都被敲碎一样，想要创造什么却成为虚空，还有那无法承当的被破碎掉的美丽，和无止境的无法道尽的巨大的，悲哀。

心中看到有两片巨大叶片的花蕾，放置在很大宇宙之间，含苞待放，犹如恶之花。

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传说这首曲子是作曲家跟魔鬼交易，听到魔鬼拉奏，梦醒后记录下来的一些片段。
小时候就听说过这个故事，也看过那幅画，到现在才有缘一听。

叹。真的是非常非常美丽的曲子！

The lost symbol

Dan Brown's new book.

it is good, until it reaches the half way. he was trying to fix a broken logical mistake. instead of doing it slightly, ineffectively, he gave it a heavy touch..turn it into a principle mistake..

Solomon tells his son about the pyramid? that's wrong, fundamentally wrong. no way of return.

就作家而言，不怎么好；很多逻辑性错误；他自己意识到故事逻辑的问题的时候，他尝试着扭转回来，但是扭转补充的手法并不圆润自然，反而是，选择了很重很浓的方式来让故事接上线，结果，犯了更大的错误，导致了故事设定原则上产生了矛盾。为好莱坞打算的情节也太浓重，美国作者的通常问题。

就学者而言，的确是个知识深入，研究充分的学者。

非礼

可爱的非礼系列。

book-historian

finally read this book, briefly. it took me two years to go through this book. every time when i pick it up in bookstore, borrow it back from library, even bought it....in the end, i cannot read it. and i know why now. anything i don't like from the very beginning are the things i won't enjoy in the end no matter what. i am probably too extremely true to my feelings. and i don't like this book. it drags.

Archeology - book - Palace of the Gods

i read this one in college...all the contents were now found left behind in the back of my memory when i now re-read it..... sometimes, i wonder what's the point of reading things since i prefer not to remember the details. but i know clearly what happened in my brain...i ingored every details, but the essence of the concept left in my being. never remember. and yet never forget.

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anyway, about this book. i couldn't find the writer, the name Richard Ellman doesn't seem right. gave up on searching.

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让-弗朗索瓦·商博良-Jean-François Champollion
the French classical scholar, philologist and orientalist who deciphered the Egyptian hieroglyphs.

which is the book?

a true great book should be read in youth, again in maturity and once more in old age, as a fine building should be seen by morning light, at noon and by moonlight. -Robertson Davis


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I notice I actually never really liked any fictions/stories. none. never favor fictions, maybe that's why i didn't understand feelings before.

The last book i read in college days was Souvenirs Entomologiques-昆虫记。the first one was DAO DE JING.

My Hero Never Dies

瞬世莲华

一波动，万劫相随。
青莲绿叶下，有风拍岸，有浪掀天。
即便是叶子青青，莲子清清，承风载露的莲瓣轻轻，三秋过后，也免不过随了风
残，末了霜减，调敝了一池恶水。

“三界无安，犹如火宅”。佛说。

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somehow, this story became quite meaningful...

imperfectionist

imperfectionist..........is this word what i think it is? the opposite of Perfectionists? unfortunately..it is not a word in English.

Boston Legal 3

Now i got to know why so many lawyers are involved in politics in US. It seems like they are the center of this society's conscience. they are the people who are facing issues, and as well stand above the problems to overview, and think.

It is in fact an "elite politics" society...is it the spirit of democracy, i doubt it. but there is no doubt that it is Hierarchy. is it bad? i don't think so. if i have to root for anything...by all means, i will choose "elite politics" over "mass decision".

Boston Legal 2

I believe the difference and arguments between Democrats and Republican are definitely a good thing for this young country over time. it begins to form the foundation of their national philosophy, to urge the thinking, and to learn the heaviness and pain of being in human's history. no winner is needed; no one is more right than the other; none of the side should rule it all...will be a better situation for them.

the only way to grow is in pain.

Laozi-the ultimate mentor

社会之所以混乱，互相争夺，原因就在于人们欲望的过分，法令的繁多，知识的追求和讲究虚伪的仁义道德

The reason of chaos and conflicts in the society is too much desire from people, too many laws and regulations, too eager to test knowledge, and pay too much attention to the pursuit of hypocritical virtue and moral.

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"When people see some things as beautiful,other things become ugly.
When people see some things as good,other things become bad.

Being and non-being create each other. Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other. High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.

Therefore the Master acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.

Things arise and she lets them come; things disappear and she lets them go.
She has but doesn't possess, acts but doesn't expect.

When her work is done, she forgets it. That is why it lasts forever." - Dao De Jing Chap 2

新浪的心理测试

大多时候超准的。很惊讶，很好玩。

ROTK

OK, it confused me.
ROTK

Romance of Three Kingdoms

Return of The King

no kidding. they both are ROTK.

不与梨花同梦。

玉骨那愁瘴雾，冰姿自有仙风。
海仙时遣探芳丛。
倒挂绿毛么凤。
素面翻嫌粉涴，洗妆不褪唇红。
高情已逐晓云空。
不与梨花同梦。

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高中时候的留言簿上,有人摘了这首苏轼的诗给我留下.那时最大的感觉是惊讶,--怎么他竟读过我没读过的诗？

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梨花的梦又是怎样?

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一直觉得，作为人类，最大的遗憾是不能在长空上飞，不能在深海里游。没有这样的能力，怎么可能自由？

Boston Legal

they are sharp, they are so sharp..i admire them, respect them, agree with them, inspired by them, and would love to keep a distance from them.

painted village

when Jacky and I drove to the beach, we passed many small towns and villages. I almost forgot what countryside look like in US. the look of fields is sort of reassuring.

i remember seeing many photo books featured villages, like Irish villages, Nertherland's, etc..European farmers make effect to color their house up. each village house was painted with stylish, solid, modern color or color combinations. none of them repeat each other. when come together, they are so delightful, and full of joyful spirit.

it is hard not to think, that these village houses aren't exactly new. some of them might be quite old. but none of them has fading color wall or roof. it says that the owners must keep painting their places once a while. and THIS is the most exciting part of these painted village - people keep changing their house colors!

that's one of the freedom i love to have. and did, to a small scale. i painted my small storage box.

is this Petite Bourgeoisie? totally. shame on me.

Sleepsong

Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby
Back to the years of loo-li lai-lay
And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow
Bless you with love for the road that you go

May you sail far to the far fields of fortune
With diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet
And may you need never to banish misfortune
May you find kindness in all that you meet

May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay

May you bring love and may you bring happiness
Be loved in return to the end of your days
Now fall off to sleep, I'm not meaning to keep you
I'll just sit for a while and sing loo-li, lai-lay

As time goes by

It was...1996, summer, in Beijing, Qin Hua University. watched the movie in a small theatre. not many students were there...no particular memory for this movie.

i've listened to this song for many times. i considered it my favorite..until...13 years later, suddenly, i heard it.

I heard it from bostonlegal.

book-The Birth of Tragedy

Learned a story:

The Phrygian King Midas was eager to learn from Silenus and caught the old man by lacing a fountain from which Silenus often drank. As Silenus fell asleep, the king's servants seized and took him to their master.

Silenus shared with the king a pessimistic philosophy: That the best thing for a man is not to be born, and if born, should die as soon as possible.

朝生暮死的可怜虫，无常与忧患的儿子，你为什么强逼我说出你最好是不要听的话呢？世间绝好的东西是你永远得不到的，——那就是不要降生，不要存在，成为乌有。但是，对于你次好的是——早死。

Silenus: God of drunkenness. It cracked me up. lovely. i will picture him having a red big ugly nose, a lots of curly hair, like all the Athenian Gods, a face always looks angry, but when he talk and drink with the crowd, he will be very loud and sparking and stir up the joy and laughter, or happiness and craziness.. i don't think Chinese have one...we should..