On a Different Day
By Crystal
Severus Snape was suffering from the loss of the Dark Lord.
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The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, while expecting a different result.
When I sing this song
believe me I have nothing to hide
I meant to bring you out to tip of this world
and into my little blue sky
I meant to do all I have promised
and much more in my next life
to show you all these time I save nothing
but a glass heart and crystal eyes
for one love I choose
for one love I forever disguise
if you aren't the one
leave my way open and let the stars shined
where I sit on my handkerchief
sing this song and cry
'once, once before I am already old
He who saw through my lies and kissed my goodbye'
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不管是什么样的努力都不会白费
生活一思索都是疑问唱出来才是歌
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, while expecting a different result.
脑残就是一遍又一遍做着同样的事情却指望有不同结果的人。
There is no such thing as a coincidence.
没有一种约定是没有代价的，
没有一种背叛是没有代价的。
你的约定和背叛呢，帝释天？
每一个说不想爱的人心里，都住着一个不可能的人
True love is your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another.
爱就疯狂 不爱就坚强
Everything you can imagine is real.
For this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.
自由才是王道，有些东西需要重建。
There is no mid way, gray way, there is only black and white and all the way.
Pride has its place but occasionally you just have to get over it.
有时候想把爱情维持在一个简单的状态，互相陪伴，尽量自由。
如果我没爱上你，其实你就是我最讨厌的那种人。
Kafka wrote, “you are free and that is why you are lost” and you are lost when there is no one; you may as well be dead.
我生命的温暖就那么多，我全部给了你。
Nothing good comes from being too small to forgive people.
花足够的时间做正确的事，只需要做一次就够了。
Take people to the edge and you’ll discover mot only what they’re made of but you too.
以前你的，眼光是往前看的，长远的。你很早预见一些事情的发生，现在的你，不但仍旧这样，而且还增加了回首过往的习惯，你不允许同一个错误犯两次。
If you continue to say nothing while silently accusing them of everything - nothing will be resolved.
我要这天，再遮不住我眼，要这地，埋不了我心，要这众生，都明白我意，要那诸佛，都烟消云散！
Love is not love that alters when it alteration finds.
有一次，我们梦见大家都是不相识的。
我们醒了，却知道我们原是相亲相爱的。
Once we dreamt that we were strangers.
We wake up to find that we were dear to each other.
世上的确有无法弥补的罪，但绝对没有不能去爱的人。
BE QUIET!!...What do you want...? I was in the middle of saying something nice...
如果是为了我想要的东西，星星的轨迹我也要改变！
就算这世上有１００万人需要我,就算他们每一个人都肯为我而死,如果我爱的人不要我的话,我宁愿那１００万人全部死掉,如果我爱的人不爱我的话,那我自己又有何用。
believe me I have nothing to hide
I meant to bring you out to tip of this world
and into my little blue sky
I meant to do all I have promised
and much more in my next life
to show you all these time I save nothing
but a glass heart and crystal eyes
for one love I choose
for one love I forever disguise
if you aren't the one
leave my way open and let the stars shined
where I sit on my handkerchief
sing this song and cry
'once, once before I am already old
He who saw through my lies and kissed my goodbye'
你相信的是世人所说的东西，而不是世上存在的东西。
那电光火石的一眼，却使我明白，千年寻找的，就是你.
自我意识有罪的话，你这家伙就是死罪啊。
Find your place in the sun. Then take a nap.
我以前买来囤积的大量巧克力全部都消失了，如果吃掉的人现在老老实实举手承认的话我就原谅他只把他打到3/4死.
自我意识有罪的话，你这家伙就是死罪啊。
Find your place in the sun. Then take a nap.
我以前买来囤积的大量巧克力全部都消失了，如果吃掉的人现在老老实实举手承认的话我就原谅他只把他打到3/4死.
唤起一天明月，照我满怀冰雪。
我只是喜欢华丽的大家，恐怖分子什么的这种阴沉的东西我不喜欢.
You can act truthfully or you can lie,
You can reveal things about yourself or you can hide.
Therefore, the audience recognizes something about themselves or they don't...
You hope they don't leave the theatre thinking 'that was nice...now where's the cab?'
奴念此离别，生当无归复。去路未敢期，此别不相思。
We are accused of stupidity when we are being cautious. Our shyness is taken for arrogance and our desire to please for sycophancy. We struggle to clear up a misunderstanding, but our throat goes dry and the words found are not the ones meant..
青山不老，为雪白头；绿水无波，因风而皱。
Shadows, as any artist will tell you, create depth. And you would choose to hide your darkness under a veil of brilliant bright.
生年不满百，安能为他人拭涕。
清明盛世，人尽其才，苍生有幸，天下太平。
直道相思了无益，未妨惆怅是清狂。
人啊,果然是只有在吃好吃的东西和睡觉时,才会觉得活著真好！
大江待君添炙碳， 赤壁待君染醉颜。
满堂花醉三千客，一剑光寒十四州。
论人之过，当源其心，不可徒拘于迹；取人之善，惟据其迹，
不必深究其心
If a dog jumps in your lap, it is because he is fond of you; but if a cat does the same thing, it is because your lap is warmer.
青青子衿，悠悠我心。但为君故，沉吟至今。
Water runs deep; it seeks its own level and will flow until it has found it. The cycle of water is endless with the snows falling in the mountains and melting. The mountain streams join to make the great rivers that run to the sea. The tides and currents churn the oceans. Similarly, our feelings are flowing as they connect the present with past experiences. Sometimes the waters are so deep that we cannot put words to our feelings.
知君仙骨无寒暑。千载相逢犹旦暮。
You don't get anything clean without getting something else dirty.
First there is a time when we believe everything, then for a little while we believe with discrimination, then we believe nothing whatever, and then we believe everything again - and, moreover, give reasons why we believe.
I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that love is real, and exists in me.
You say that love is nonsense.... I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.
我只是喜欢华丽的大家，恐怖分子什么的这种阴沉的东西我不喜欢.
You can act truthfully or you can lie,
You can reveal things about yourself or you can hide.
Therefore, the audience recognizes something about themselves or they don't...
You hope they don't leave the theatre thinking 'that was nice...now where's the cab?'
奴念此离别，生当无归复。去路未敢期，此别不相思。
We are accused of stupidity when we are being cautious. Our shyness is taken for arrogance and our desire to please for sycophancy. We struggle to clear up a misunderstanding, but our throat goes dry and the words found are not the ones meant..
青山不老，为雪白头；绿水无波，因风而皱。
Shadows, as any artist will tell you, create depth. And you would choose to hide your darkness under a veil of brilliant bright.
生年不满百，安能为他人拭涕。
清明盛世，人尽其才，苍生有幸，天下太平。
直道相思了无益，未妨惆怅是清狂。
人啊,果然是只有在吃好吃的东西和睡觉时,才会觉得活著真好！
大江待君添炙碳， 赤壁待君染醉颜。
满堂花醉三千客，一剑光寒十四州。
论人之过，当源其心，不可徒拘于迹；取人之善，惟据其迹，
不必深究其心
If a dog jumps in your lap, it is because he is fond of you; but if a cat does the same thing, it is because your lap is warmer.
青青子衿，悠悠我心。但为君故，沉吟至今。
Water runs deep; it seeks its own level and will flow until it has found it. The cycle of water is endless with the snows falling in the mountains and melting. The mountain streams join to make the great rivers that run to the sea. The tides and currents churn the oceans. Similarly, our feelings are flowing as they connect the present with past experiences. Sometimes the waters are so deep that we cannot put words to our feelings.
知君仙骨无寒暑。千载相逢犹旦暮。
You don't get anything clean without getting something else dirty.
First there is a time when we believe everything, then for a little while we believe with discrimination, then we believe nothing whatever, and then we believe everything again - and, moreover, give reasons why we believe.
I thought love was just a mirage of the mind, it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find. But the day I met you, I began to see, that love is real, and exists in me.
如果能不小心就错过了的
那就不是命中注定
You say that love is nonsense.... I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength.
向来痴，从此醉
天地は万物の逆旅 光陰は百代の過客
When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live life.
拼命地奔跑，华丽地跌倒
I like an escalator because an escalator can never break, it can only become stairs. There would never be an escalator temporarily out of order sign, only an escalator temporarily stairs. Sorry for the convenience.
Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.
Real love is always fated. It has been arranged before time. It is the most meticulously prepared of coincidences. And fate, of course, is simply a secular term for the will of God, and coincidence for His grace.
自古皆有死，民无信不立。
What the heart gives away is never gone.
我为了谁而美丽，我为了谁而永生？
我为了什么而存在，我为了什么而毁灭？
有人说，这就是宿命。
那个人自称为神。
既然如此，
遵循宿命的人，总是无罪的。
If you press me to say why I loved him, can say no more than it was because he was he and I was I.
If you press me to say why I loved him, can say no more than it was because he was he and I was I.
明明我也和大家一样，每天过着普通的生活，但是别人却觉得我好像生活在火星上面一样。
if "ifs" and "buts" were candy and nuts, we'd all have a merry Christmas.
世界那么大，最后是谁陪着谁
On a Different Day
ReplyDeleteBy Crystal
Severus Snape was suffering from the loss of the Dark Lord.
If people didn’t know better, they would have no doubt think he is the most faithful Death Eater left. And even among some Order members, suspicions were aroused as the day goes by. In the past, even in the darkest of times, Severus Snape was positive in his absonant (?) way.
“He quite enjoyed teaching”, as Dumnbledore described once, and to those attuned to Dumbledore’s subtlety, he meant: Severus so enjoyed teaching by fully executing his authority to scare the shit out of little infants he deemed unworthy of his intelligence. Oh, my, he so enjoyed taking points off, giving out week-long detentions, every (faculty? Order?) member could clearly remember the unpleasant satisfaction that lingered around his sneering lips. See, even in those days, being a double agent, taking care of three most powerful and bad-tempered wizards of his generation, Snape didn’t loss his sense of humor or giving up his little amusements.
But then he seemed to have forgotten to count his daily intimidations of the first years from occasionally to frequently. When he strode all grounds of Howgarts, he did not scold a clumsy Hufferpuff. When a Ravenclaw who happened to stand in his way, Snape only glared at her instead of providing the usual full-blown assaults to her intelligence. And when he saw a Gryffindor walking down the corridor, he simply curled his lips in disgust without taking any points!
What’s worse, he completely ignored the news of the newly appointed DATA teacher, which is, of cause, no less than the resident celebrity of Howgarts, the most falsely acclaimed hero (in Snape’s opinion), the very one, Harry Potter. Everyone expected this news to totally send him off the roof, a scene that is rumored to be one of Dombledore’s most-wanted episodes of the new year. Disappointment from Severus’s lack of reaction was so huge that Dombledore even repeated Harry Potter’s achievements in defense against dark arts during the staff meeting, right in front of his face. As a result, none, from Severus, a disagree glare from Mcgallnagle.
Severus Snape is unprovocatable, even by Harry Potter!
And he is sorry for the loss of old time, which leak out from the words of himself and leave people in unease. But in this case, Donmbledore said, Severus is just LOST.
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One year later, after the world finally happily peace down, Severus Snape dissapeared.
Compeletly, totally, untraceablly vanished. Even the great headmaster become silent and extremlly sad after few month’s desperating searching.
Hermoroni Granger was appointed to cover the potion class for sixth and seventh years, Zabini Braise and Draco Malfoy covere the third, fourth and fifth, Harry Potter will handle the first and second years. Headmaster himself take the Head of Slytherin house position. All of the students, even the new-comings are all confused. Without Prof. Snape, no more the cloak waving in the corridor, lacking of the looming over appear from nowhere, even no certain amount of points of three houses dramatically fallen down from the billbroad, the sky of Hogwart looks no less cloudy and no more merrier, and thus even more weird than before.
He just vaporized, evaporated. In his private room, all of his potion ingredients were in their places. his favorite cauldron set was clean and ready to use. his closet was untouched and not a single piece of cloth gone with him, and teaching rob was folded and lay on the bed, and on his studying table, his wand lies there, quietly.
Which means he is wondering somewhere outside, naked and vulnerable. Dombledore said to the stuff who had already been pertrified to no end.
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“Damn the Scotland weather!” Harry murmured. Sometimes people would wonder if the curses from the mouth of wizard will actually do their work, esp a powerful one like Harry Potter. Years after years, the weather turns out worse and worse. In forbidden forest, the raindrops work hardly to slip over the thick piled tree leaves, drip down on the rotten layers on the ground. Clear drops turn into filthy ones.
“Damn the rain! Damn the forest!Damn that git!” Harry feels so tire. Now this patrol is his last one for today. After done with this area, he definitly will head to his bed deriectly. Fuck the searching, fuck the weather and fuck Snape! Should leave him rotten to death for his stupid idea of disppear in that way. (“leave the normal people worry about his safety…”Snape’s voice appear in his brain. Ah, this one is from third year.)
“oh, how pathetic…” a forced smile and shaking head.
Snape was his nightmare in daytime from the very beginning, as Voldmodle night. No need to mention they were hostile to each other from head to tail even in these day they had to be paired together and work with each other. Harry never like Snape even after the war. He , of cause, as the other did, noticed these strange changes about Snape. To tell the truth, His bone were all ache from bracing himself for Snape’s due-to-pouring verbally abuse and insult before the stuff meeting started. But it didn’t come. After that, they had never come as well. Few days passed, he was so intense even could not easy with people mentioned that man’s name. He was breathless each time Snape passed him. But he always passed, just passed, without seeing him, no mention the insult. Harry was full of hatred for making him wait for so long to fight back , close the case and wait for the next. He was so focus on the suppose-to-be-drop shoe from that man that the news of Snape’s disappearance was like a snap from that man at last.
He is shoked and irritated, just like his expectations.
But this time, Snape did not give his chance to revenge, he just left, no, dissapeared. It feels like he spit his last and most talent venom, and fleed. This is so low, unfair, non-sports-spirit, and unpolite even! That’s why it was Harry Potter, not anybody else, insisted to search every inch of the land to dig Snape out, even just a cadaver. After few month search, people gave up the hope, or more precisely in their heart, the belief that Snape will never commit to suicide. Teacher covered his classes, even Harry himself, and everyone is waiting for the grief will passed in Headmaster’s heart and to have another formal teacher in this position is in order anyway.
Everyone, except Dombledore and Harry Potter. Dombledore seems like has no intention to release his sadness and Harry seems has no intention to give up.
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That was why the war hero boy now was stumbling in the forbidden forest after whole day’s teaching, cursing and gasping.
That was when he heard a weeping sounds among the trees. Unlike human’s cry, the weeping is so small, so tiny, brokenly, and hardly to catch by normal human ears. It makes the luxuriant forest more like an experienced murdurer quietly waiting to see the last breath escape for the victim. Following the sound,what Harry find out is …… no less than, a puppy. A puppy with black back, white belly, black long ear framing the white face, twelve inch long body which the left leg now was trapped in the crack of roots, looks broken badly. and the little thing is almost amort, weeping occasionaly.
The sounds of something’s moving over surprised that little thing. Once it open its dark channel eye, it saw Harry. Frightenly, It desprately floundered among the roots, trying to get itself free. It cried out aloud and sharped its voice, trying to scare the human away.
Harry approached, eyed the fragile animal curiously. A puppy, ha! who can believe this, even after the dramatic dimission of Voldmodle and Snape? A puppy in the mid of Forbidden Forest? A puppy hated human? A puppy even not a arm-long length? A puppy definitly looks belong to cozy sofa and warm firplace? Harry fetched his hands.
“Come on, babe. Let’s go home.” Harry said happily.
And then the puppy went silent, eyed Harry hatefully, and when the human hand almost touched its forehead, it bite.
“Ouch!” Harry draw back, built up a twisted smile, “ lots of hostility, are we? I forgive you, though. The dark place like this drove many species into madness. And don’t do that again, or I am forced to hex you, carry you by your little tail, show you off in four houses’ dorm room, let them play with you and without even cure you first.”
The puppy looked horrified. (“ the famous Harry Potter, never leave any chance of showing his predominance unused, does he?” Snape speak now.) Harry smiled and touched its head. So, in wizard world, even a puppy understand human’s word? “Sorry about that. By the way, I am Harry, Harry Potter.” The puppy eyed him, disgusted.
Drawing his wand, noticing the puppy shivering at his action, Harry loosed the roots, took the whelp out carefully. “ you are weird, you know? Are you scare of wand? Did you even see one before? Why are you here?” Harry hold the animal in front of his eyes, “where is your parents? So you are an orphan. Now, I will cast a spell which would release your pain. No need to be afraid.” And then Harry did. The puppy whimpered. “Now! we head for home,” The puppy squirmed in his arms, “ Hogwarts. did you heard of her? I think you do, since you are a wizard whelp.” Harry tweaked its ear slightly, then look back into the endless dark , sighed.
Vainness again, today.
Well, not exactly.
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Someone is knocking the door. Sighed again, Harry rises up from his bath, towels his waist, walk out the bathroom. The puppy is nowhere to see. Hidden maybe, since no one could get out or get in this room without his permission. And that whelp, unlike any, for uncertain reason, was quite unhappy with its lifesaver. Harry tried to bath him first, but it bite once getting into Harry’s bathroom. when Harry let him go, it jumped on the floor, ran away stumblely.
In front of Harry is his life-long smarter friend, Hermorni Granger.
“Harry! I couldn’t believe you stay that late outside in this kind of weather? I called three times after evelen, never an answer! You don ‘t care how much that get us worried, do you? Here!” Hermorni hand him a pile of marked assignment, step in the sitting room, help herself sit down on the sofa.
“Thanks.” Harry grunts, setting the piled scrolls on his desk, entering the bedroom, then out with a shirt and jean on, sitting with Hermorni.
“Wanna some tea?” Harry ask.
“You sit, I’ll make it.” Hermorni stand up, head to kitchen. Harry nods and then stands up to search under the sofa, coach, fireplace, remove the cushions, check the book shelf. No, no, where is it? Could not be that shy even for puppy, right?
“What are you looking for?” Hermorni come out, with the tea set on a tray.
“er….nothing.”
“Nothing.”
“ It is a ….something I found out there.”
Hermorni frowns:“ In the forest. Out there again? The something could not happen to be Proffessor Snape, could it? Really, Harry. Come to sit and tell me what’s your thinking.”
“I don’t do thinking, you are the one, remember?” Harry goes back to the sofa, pick up the tea cup, sips, smiling.
Hermorni sighs,“ truth to tell, I couldn’t really believe….Proffessor Snape, I think he deserved a decent curtain call more than this.”
“No proof of death yet. ” Harry said calmly.
“And you are going to keep doing this until when?”
“Dunno. Until corpse?” Harry says drily.
“Harry,” Hermorni put her cup down, “ I begin to wonder…I wanted to ask you about this two months ago…”
“Go ahead.”
“ Was there something happened between Proffessor Snape and you during the war?”
Harry lift his head, looks at Hermorni, said slowly,“ If the ‘something’ you are referring is not about how difficult to retain the urge to kill Snape, to curse him for his shoot out his lips whenever I tried to put the word ‘work together’ to make some sense, or to throttle him for his ever-green keep-refreshing rancour toward my dead father and godfather which continue to get a new level toward me and also which leaking out from his every single sentence he said to me, no, I think there was nothing happened between us. Why?”
There is some noise come from his studying room. Must be there.
Hermorni smiles, “ did he? We have never been informed about that. You keep it quite slicent, did u? He was a quite bastard, really, in this case. ”
“Well, To be hated by Slytherin member was my life-description, I suppose. And this one was just a little more too personal. Could not let him go easily without fightting back hardly, right? So even at that time, he could not stated himself as unscatched at all after he throughed with me. Before, we were always even steven. ” Harry smile back a little.
“ so, that was silly of me? I was thinking perhaps you developed some …nicer affection to him…… It might be silly, I must admit. Cannot blame me, though. I didn’t work near to you and Professor. Without seeing, Who can guess it is still a hot-white war going on between you two since then? You two together keep it out of other’s eyes successfully.”
“To get out of trouble-resolving tea time of Headmaster, of all the matters.”
“To me, all I can see is you spend all you spare time on him after he…left, you don’t have time for dating anymore, no hanging-out with us even, your sleeping time physically reduced and so does the dinner time. you search all the newspapers even Muggle’s, now you want to stir the Forest. and not including Headmaster, you are the only one who still keep the confidence. It looks to me, if it is not love…”
“Love?” Harry cry aloud unbelievably. “And you sounds like…… that I then again marked myself as a Saviour non-intently after all that heroship mess already. Saviour of Snape.Ha!”
“Oh, come on. You are a Gryffindor. Saviour of Slytherin quite suit us well” Hermorni laughs, “ but my thinking was it should be a power of love.”
Harry snorts, unbelievably.
“And you said it just is out of a, extraordinary, hatred?”
“ Certainly.” Harry put down his cup.
“I don’t believe you.”
“So You’d rather believe I…what... like Snape? How optimism you are. You should be in Hufflepuff. ”
“I’d prefer Ravencraw, in this case.”
“how about maybe I’d feel better in my rest life if I could finish him myself, or saw him rotten in pain with my own eyes?”
“hmm. That makes you a Slytherin.”Hermorni snorts.
“Not a surprise, that.” Harry waves his hand, yawned, “‘morni. Nonsense of Today is sold out. It is time to bed, ‘m tired.”
“Make it tomorrow’s dinner special then? You do need rest, I agree.” Hermorni look at Harry disagreed.
At the door, Harry said, “ see you tomorrow. By the way, you should have your eyes checked with Poppy. You know a person look things like that the eyesight can’t be quite right.” Slightly laugh.
“You know you even sounds like him? A harmless version.” Hermorni smiles and waves good bye.
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seeing Hermorni leave, closing the door, warding the room once again, Harry goes into studying. The puppy stopped moving around already, now crouchs by the studying desk, hiding its face in paws. The stains from forest are still overed its body. Its left back ankle still blood-stained and wrenched.
Harry appoachs, fetch it by two hands. The puppy lifts head, relucantly show its face under the lamp, looking at Harry, alertedly.
“you terribly need a bath, babe. Then we will have your ankle checked and tomorrow morning we will go to hospital wing. Don’t bite me again. This is your second warning. I won’t hurt you , And you could trust me, ok?”
the puppy opens its mouth, shows its teeth.
“ I take it that you don’t.” Harry sighs, bring it into the bathroom.
Testing the water heat in the bath by one hand, holding the puppy with another hand, Harry set up the puppy bath for the first time of his life, happily.
“I think we need a pet name here, and you know you are my pet here, do you?” the puppy barks angrily and begin to struggle try to escape from Harry’s grip.
Harry laughs: “ Easy, easy. You know your temper as bad as Hermorni, or Snape. Hermorni is the girl you saw a moment ago. Hmm.. maybe you didn’t see her since you were busy with hiding. But you will, eventually. And Snape, is a Professor here.”
Harry put the puppy in the bath, shower it first with warm water and then rub the soap over it, smiles down. “it is lavender soap, do you like it? It will help you calm down.And, where we are? Oh. that bad-tempered Snape, he lost. This is why I got you in the Forest. I was looking for him. But now I found you. You are much worth than him, you know. ” The puppy is always trying to avoid Harry’s touch, even show lots of hostile to Harry’s actions or, maybe words. He brushs the puppy’s head, puppy hedges; clean its back fur, the puppy writhes; he rubs its belly, the puppy jumps.
“ Why are you so difficult, hmm?” Harry cups the Puppy’s face, look into its eyes. For uncertainly reason, He have a feeling that the puppy is very familiar to him.
Maybe because I know it knows what I said. Harry thinks. That makes people no stranger.