mom's regrettable thing

parents said the most regrettable thing they have ever done is allowing me come to USA, agreeing me to stay here.

mom earn 20 times than i do even after retirement...have a happy work team of thousands people...travel for work and fun all the time..working while really enjoy with what she do, her team mates, her passion...young people love her...she receives mother's day greeting all day...she doesn't understand why i want to be in US. she said green card is non sense (which is true). she said being lazy is my truth..(which is true). i don't enjoy change, or move around..or move back..too much trouble...just want to stay down and lay down.......(if i go back,i want try to be a village chief; or some job in charitable education;......with high speed internet...i don't want to work for anything. i like to work..to have a projects to handle...to deal with hard situations, and change it to good situation..i can work more...but not for anything...i want work more, only if for a certain someone.. )


it is my fate. away from homeland is my fate.
i know this when i was at young age.

i don't know why it had being arranged this way;
maybe it had being arranged before i born.
for quite a while, i thought i knew why. now i don't know any more.

but, i still know it is my fate, be far away from home, to live in an far away country, to fulfill my destiny and purpose of experience this life.

i like it. i like the way it is.