瞬世莲华

一波动，万劫相随。
青莲绿叶下，有风拍岸，有浪掀天。
即便是叶子青青，莲子清清，承风载露的莲瓣轻轻，三秋过后，也免不过随了风
残，末了霜减，调敝了一池恶水。

“三界无安，犹如火宅”。佛说。

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somehow, this story became quite meaningful...

imperfectionist

imperfectionist..........is this word what i think it is? the opposite of Perfectionists? unfortunately..it is not a word in English.

Boston Legal 3

Now i got to know why so many lawyers are involved in politics in US. It seems like they are the center of this society's conscience. they are the people who are facing issues, and as well stand above the problems to overview, and think.

It is in fact an "elite politics" society...is it the spirit of democracy, i doubt it. but there is no doubt that it is Hierarchy. is it bad? i don't think so. if i have to root for anything...by all means, i will choose "elite politics" over "mass decision".

Boston Legal 2

I believe the difference and arguments between Democrats and Republican are definitely a good thing for this young country over time. it begins to form the foundation of their national philosophy, to urge the thinking, and to learn the heaviness and pain of being in human's history. no winner is needed; no one is more right than the other; none of the side should rule it all...will be a better situation for them.

the only way to grow is in pain.

Laozi-the ultimate mentor

社会之所以混乱，互相争夺，原因就在于人们欲望的过分，法令的繁多，知识的追求和讲究虚伪的仁义道德

The reason of chaos and conflicts in the society is too much desire from people, too many laws and regulations, too eager to test knowledge, and pay too much attention to the pursuit of hypocritical virtue and moral.

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"When people see some things as beautiful,other things become ugly.
When people see some things as good,other things become bad.

Being and non-being create each other. Difficult and easy support each other.
Long and short define each other. High and low depend on each other.
Before and after follow each other.

Therefore the Master acts without doing anything
and teaches without saying anything.

Things arise and she lets them come; things disappear and she lets them go.
She has but doesn't possess, acts but doesn't expect.

When her work is done, she forgets it. That is why it lasts forever." - Dao De Jing Chap 2

新浪的心理测试

大多时候超准的。很惊讶，很好玩。

ROTK

OK, it confused me.
ROTK

Romance of Three Kingdoms

Return of The King

no kidding. they both are ROTK.

不与梨花同梦。

玉骨那愁瘴雾，冰姿自有仙风。
海仙时遣探芳丛。
倒挂绿毛么凤。
素面翻嫌粉涴，洗妆不褪唇红。
高情已逐晓云空。
不与梨花同梦。

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高中时候的留言簿上,有人摘了这首苏轼的诗给我留下.那时最大的感觉是惊讶,--怎么他竟读过我没读过的诗？

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梨花的梦又是怎样?

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一直觉得，作为人类，最大的遗憾是不能在长空上飞，不能在深海里游。没有这样的能力，怎么可能自由？

Boston Legal

they are sharp, they are so sharp..i admire them, respect them, agree with them, inspired by them, and would love to keep a distance from them.

painted village

when Jacky and I drove to the beach, we passed many small towns and villages. I almost forgot what countryside look like in US. the look of fields is sort of reassuring.

i remember seeing many photo books featured villages, like Irish villages, Nertherland's, etc..European farmers make effect to color their house up. each village house was painted with stylish, solid, modern color or color combinations. none of them repeat each other. when come together, they are so delightful, and full of joyful spirit.

it is hard not to think, that these village houses aren't exactly new. some of them might be quite old. but none of them has fading color wall or roof. it says that the owners must keep painting their places once a while. and THIS is the most exciting part of these painted village - people keep changing their house colors!

that's one of the freedom i love to have. and did, to a small scale. i painted my small storage box.

is this Petite Bourgeoisie? totally. shame on me.

Sleepsong

Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby
Back to the years of loo-li lai-lay
And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow
Bless you with love for the road that you go

May you sail far to the far fields of fortune
With diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet
And may you need never to banish misfortune
May you find kindness in all that you meet

May there always be angels to watch over you
To guide you each step of the way
To guard you and keep you safe from all harm
Loo-li, loo-li, lai-lay

May you bring love and may you bring happiness
Be loved in return to the end of your days
Now fall off to sleep, I'm not meaning to keep you
I'll just sit for a while and sing loo-li, lai-lay

As time goes by

It was...1996, summer, in Beijing, Qin Hua University. watched the movie in a small theatre. not many students were there...no particular memory for this movie.

i've listened to this song for many times. i considered it my favorite..until...13 years later, suddenly, i heard it.

I heard it from bostonlegal.

book-The Birth of Tragedy

Learned a story:

The Phrygian King Midas was eager to learn from Silenus and caught the old man by lacing a fountain from which Silenus often drank. As Silenus fell asleep, the king's servants seized and took him to their master.

Silenus shared with the king a pessimistic philosophy: That the best thing for a man is not to be born, and if born, should die as soon as possible.

朝生暮死的可怜虫，无常与忧患的儿子，你为什么强逼我说出你最好是不要听的话呢？世间绝好的东西是你永远得不到的，——那就是不要降生，不要存在，成为乌有。但是，对于你次好的是——早死。

Silenus: God of drunkenness. It cracked me up. lovely. i will picture him having a red big ugly nose, a lots of curly hair, like all the Athenian Gods, a face always looks angry, but when he talk and drink with the crowd, he will be very loud and sparking and stir up the joy and laughter, or happiness and craziness.. i don't think Chinese have one...we should..

book-Civilisation quotes

Ruskin said: " Great nations write their autobiographies in three manuscripts, the book of their deeds, the book of their words and the book of their art. Not one of these books can be understand unless we read the two others, but of the three the only trustworthy one is the last."

But thinking about ths almost incredible episode does tell one something about the nature of civilisation. It shows that however complex and solid it seems, it is actually quite fragile. it can be destroyed.

people sometimes feel disappointed the first time they see the famous beginning of Renaissance architechture...... They don't try to impress us or crush us by size and weight, as all God-directed architechture does. Everything is adjusted to the scale of reasonable human necessity. They are intended to make each individual more conscious of his powers, as a complete moral and intellectual being. They are an assertion of the dignity of man.

So if one asks why the civilisation of Greece and Rome collapsed, the real answer is that it was exhausted.

People sometimes tell me that they prefer barbarism to civilisation. i doubt if they have given it a long enough trial. Like the people of Alexandria they are bored by civilisation; but all evidence suggests that the boredom of barbarism is infinitely greater. Quite apart from discomforts and privations, there was no escape from it.

Civilized man, or so it seems to me, mustfeel that he belongs somewhere in space and time; that he consciously looks forward and looks back.

It was achieved by fighting. All great civilisations, in their early stages, are based on success in war.

But historical judgments are very tricky. Maybe the tension between the spiritual and worldly powers throughout the Middle age was precisely what kept European civilisation alive.

In naturalistic terms, as bodies, they are impossible, and the fact that one believes in them is a triumph of art.

Think of the people we encountered in the ninth and tenth centuries: vigorous, passionate, earnestly striving towards some kind of intellectual light, but fundamentally still barbarians..

Inside there is no trace of difficulty or calculation: the whole harmonious space seems to have grown up out of the earth according to some natural law of harmony.

The early Florentine Renaissance was an urban culture. Men spent their time in the streets and squares, and in the shops.

why it was in Florence and not elsewhere that men became perfect in the arts,...' the spirit of criticism: the air of Florence making minds naturally free, and not content with mediocrity.'

Our contemporary attitude of pretending to understand works of art in order not to appear philistines would have seemed absurd to the Florentines. They were tough lot.

whereas the Athenians loved philosophical argument, the Florentines were chiefly interested in making money and playing appalling practical jokes on stupid men.

They were curious, they were extremely intelligent, and they had, to supreme degree, the power of making their thoughts visible.

there was one of the weaknesses of Renaissance civilisation.it depended on a very small minority.

But one can't help wondering how far civilisation would have evolved if it has been entirely dependent on the popular will.

This is no longer a world of free and active men, but a world of giants and heroes.

从现在开始

所有东西都要双语，至少英语。
这样，三年以后，就可以自由了。

烟杆这玩意儿……

最近稍微有点在意………………不知道是不是被复古风潮影响了。突然很想找一根漂亮的烟杆，和烟叶来玩…………当然，DC的市面上，这种玩意儿还不知道哪里去找。找到多半也是男士用的。

我想要，翡翠的烟杆。或者是要有透明感的材质。

my sweet home

re-arranged room during the past month. re-arrange is not the right word. should be----regeneration.

just a while ago, there was not even a decent bed. but it will, eventually, turn into a little Garden of Eden. loving it.

and it is true that kids will somehow inherit some habits from their parents..

so, in short.....

So, in short, the earthhuman are very strange creatures.

They create patterns, rules and formats to interact with each other;
They picture who they are as described in their books, and determinedly follow through it;
They got all the details but miss the points;
They like to make things colorful, complicated and full of non-sense, then enjoy drama.

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just read some magazines articles from the shelf of bookstore ................... and realize i am an alien. yea.

魏晋文化到底有多逍遥?

They said Jin Dynasty was the only times in whole Chinese history which the mandarin and the scholars believed the humanity was the ultimate goal of the society..

every individual matters..it sounds like easy saying in nowadays. But to think back, think really back... Han Dynasty...Qin Dynasty...Warring States Period...Spring and Autumn Period.....and think forward....Sui..Tang Dynasty............and all the way down to Qing.............people never matters....but the whole imperial period, the feudalism did much better in terms of forming the nation's culture. Much better than current times, and the future cannot top it either.

then what really matters? the forms of governing? i think not. the people? not sure. the confidence of its own existence? might be.

三万里红尘掩过，忘却了是非沉浮；抛却当时荣辱悲欢，谁还计身后那千秋折返？有形的云，无形的风，无法承载的文明轨迹……

Hero never dies.

Naruto...
now watching 307...
and saw Kakashi and couldn't help but wondering.......
why is he still alive?.....................and why this one and that one,and that person are still alive?..............

their enemies are much much stronger. it only makes sense if some of those old faces dies as well, not just their enemies, then they can and put new faces in the show....

But none for one piece. absolutely no...no one in one piece dies. ....didn't Ener go to moon?........

应该拍一个艾尼路的小剧场吧？就像海怪版的那种小剧场？

book-Civilisation

I always suspect that I am actually a barbarian.

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The author is Kenneth Clark. It was published in 1969.

What I like the most is his sophisticated complex ways of phrasing sentences. they made the paragraphs very elegant, and difficult to read through, just like the concept he was talking about in the book. and the concept is so Western to the core, that i 'm not even sure how much i am really for it. but it is a beautiful piece.

and when he mentioned a librarian of Charlemagne and how important he was to the Atlantic civilization. couldn't help my smiling. librarian, certainly.

drama-天地人

天地人。

之前刚出来的时候，虫子问我在看吗？
我没有注意到啊……
虫子说，你好歹也是个炎fan了，怎么就不看了？
（惭愧有余，所谓炎fan，其实是99年发现炎，之后屡次尝试去读完那个故事，结果未果的程度而已。不过也不怪我，没有完整版本的大……………………悲剧，让人怎么敢随便看？）

你看了？
没有。
（说什么啊，结果还不是自己害怕到不敢看？）

总之，出于责任心，还是去看了数集（还真是好说话的）。结果还是无法持续，不知道为什么，对于所有的战国故事都无法终看。除非——————谁真的就把炎实实在在地鸿篇巨制拍出来……………

最近也只有op

最近也只有op还挺着。
什么时候开始银魂也笑不起来了，大概是吐嘈吐老掉了。

Africa Fashion and Culture Performance

Went to see the performance last night. Learned a lot about the attire and cloth style differences among different areas, nations and cultures in Africa. the patterns and prints symbols different area and nation, even tribe. definitely saw some of the patterns in olympic games. some designer's pieces are impressive.

learned about colonial history and its influence on local people's life and heart.When King became Chief, while Queen was still titled as Queen; When different tribes were crossed as one country on the map by colonists/conquerors, while the people never feel like one unit, still look the others as the others after hundreds year..

Human's history is a history of imposing and ignoring. And all the pains, after they fade from people's memory, they sink in the blood and bone. and yet this is how we survived and this is what formed our beings. China had been through these 160 years ago, and before that. people get used to be oblivious and moved on. life is easier this way. why bother to remember. this is our philosophy which lead us through the 5000 years bloodshed history, and i love it.

also discussed Qin emperor.
dinner in a brewery. fish meat was so dead, as always.

国王被削夺权利，然后改叫酋长，可是王后还是叫王后。她们说这里的人们谈着肤色的歧视，可是就是他们自己的国家人民之间，也是相互觉得对方是陌生人，广义的歧视偏见无所不在，而那都是因为殖民时期的殖民者们硬要捏合一些部落，组成国家。他们的内心并不是联合的。我们也谈到了秦始皇。

非洲每个国家、地区的服装都有自己的code。差异是很明显的。不但看到了色彩缤纷的衣服,知道了差异的内容。

Back to Tang Dynasty

if i have a time machine, i would go back to................. Tang dynasty

more or less, modern Chinese people has the same wish: Back to Tang Dynasty, for all kinds of reasons..

as for me, Tang dynasty probably suits me the best.

It was a time of dream, one of the most splendid chapters of Chinese history.
Men with talents shined in their own ways, like stars in the sky....no matter what talent they had, official circle or outlaws, there were plenty places for them to show off.

You can be confident, or a bit bluffing;
You can make the best of things or take the world as it is;
You can choose ways to make widely known, or you can hide;
You know who you are, and what you can and cannot do;
You know brilliant people are out there and everywhere, and you also believe in your own uniqueness;


You are modest and gentle outside; but you are sharp and extraordinary inside;
You know how to enjoy the bustling and flourishing and ostentatiously prosperous; and you know how to keep a distance from it;
You keep low-profile for a time being, and being full comfortable for any shine moment in the wide and sky of freedom.


那个时代自信张扬，可以随遇而安，但如果有可能，人们还是更愿意显达;士人们清楚自己的才能，也熟悉其他江湖才俊；君子看起来温和谦逊，内心锋芒闪亮；男女可以享受繁华极致，也可以置身事外……

盛唐……就那么短短的一个历史时期，却比任何其他的时代更加地承载着中国人的梦想和期盼。连封建社会时代鼎盛的康乾盛世也无法提供那种宽慰人心的梦想的力量，到底因为有着怎样的烙印呢？

不知道什么样的书和文字可以极尽表现它的荣耀，但是书籍永远填充着空虚的繁荣，到底什么是历史的真实……真想亲眼看见。而话说回来，所谓承载梦想的时代，或许就仅仅是因为想象？

movie-I Love You, Man

watched

i like Jason Segel...always do.he has too much thinking behind his appearance or behavior, necessary ones or non-necessaries...and he reminds me somebody.

Dido

no surprise. a reasonable matter. a total logical result. My favorite singer is the one who share the same birthday date with me.

every word in her lyric is mirroring my feelings, my point of view, and my soul. to know someone like this exists is somehow a relief...

Sand Sculpture

Swiss artist Olaf Breuning's sand sculpture at South Beach in Miami Florida, on December 16, 2008.

loving this sculpture. esp it is in Miami where the slim hot beautiful girls everywhere. and among them, this sculpture lady represents the spirit of freedom...carefree-dom?

I Will Always Return

I hear the wind call your name. It calls me back home again.
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns. Oh it's to you I'll always return.

I still feel your breath on my skin. I hear your voice deep within.
The sound of my lover - a feeling so strong. It's to you - I'll always belong.

Now I know it's true. My every road leads to you.
And in the hour of darkness darlin'. Your light gets me through.

Wanna swim in your river - be warmed by your sun. Bathe in your waters - cos you are the one.
I can't stand the distance - I can't dream alone. I can't wait to see you - Ya I'm on my way home

Oh I hear the wind call your name. The sound that leads me home again.
It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns. Oh, it's to you - I will always return

韩版西洋古董洋果子店

虽然不看韩剧，实在是因为这漫画本身去看的。比日版的好。日版对什么都伪善地修改。

Mañjusaka

我承认，我就是喜欢悲惨。这个名字让我喜欢。

彼岸花－开彼岸，不见花，不见叶。

彼岸花，花开一千年，叶落一千年。花叶永不相见。情不为因果，缘注定生死。

【彼岸花来历。春分前后三天叫春彼岸，秋分前后三天叫秋彼岸。 是上坟的日子。彼岸花开在秋彼岸期间，非常准时，所以才叫彼岸花。彼岸花，花开开彼岸，开时看不到叶子，有叶子时看不到花，花叶两不相见，生生相错。在那儿大批大批的开着这花，远远看上去就像是血所铺成的地毯, 又因其红的似火而被喻为“火照之路”，也是这长长黄泉路上唯一的风景与色彩。她们构成火红色的花径指引人们走向三岔河的彼岸，人就踏着这花的指引通向幽冥之狱。其实彼岸花，原意为天上之花，红色，天降吉兆四华之一。 】

【these flowers usually bloom near cemeteries around the autumnal equinox, they are described in Chinese and Japanese translations of the Lotus Sutra as ominous flowers that grow in Diyu, or Huángquán, and guide the dead into the next reincarnation.

When the flowers of Mañjusaka bloom, their leaves would have fallen; when their leaves grow, the flowers would have wilted. the flowers shall never meet the leaves.

It was said that when the flowers and the leaves met after death in Diyu, they vowed to meet each other after reincarnation. However, neither of them could keep their words.

Some other legends have it that when you see someone that you may never meet again, these flowers, also called red spider lilies, would bloom along the path. Perhaps because of these sorrowful legends, people often use these flowers in funerals.】

记得

很早以前看过一首诗，说是：我其实并不是怀着恶魔的心降临人世间的。但是在人间的光里，被践踏，被撕碎————

谁写的？似乎是五四时期的东西………………

changes

I am changing my wardrobe and room. total style change.

somehow this part inside of me is quite funny.constantly changing inside..but doesn't like any changes outside.