I finally found The Book

it says every aspect of the concept i have been looking for for years.

It is THE book. so grateful.

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World peace is a personal thing. What is needed is not a change of circumstance, but a change of consciousness.

I have no judgment in the matter. It is simply a thought. There is only one question of any
relevance regarding this or any other thought. Does it serve you to hold that? In terms of Who
You Are and Who You seek to Be, does that thought serve you?

1. Relativity—a system wherein you could exist as a thing in relationship to something else.
2. Forgetfulness—a process by which you willingly submit to total amnesia, so that you can
not know that relativity is merely a trick, and that you are All of It.
3. Consciousness—a state of Being in which you grow until you reach full awareness, then
becoming a True and Living God, creating and experiencing your own reality, expanding and
exploring that reality, changing and re-creating that reality as you stretch your consciousness
to new limits—or shall we say, to no limit.
In this paradigm, Consciousness is everything.
Consciousness—that of which you are truly aware—is the basis of all truth and thus of all
true spirituality.