2010终于

终于要结束了！

What a fateful year. glad to have an end of it. but who knows, 2011 might be even more fateful.

Marlene Dietrich

好像好小的时候就记得她了，在一群三十年代的绝代荣华的影星们的照片中。

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“Marlene Dietrich had a distance from her own self: she could study her face, her legs, her body, as if she were someone else. This gave her the ability to mold her look, transforming her appearance for effect. She could pose in just the way that would most excite a man, her blankness letting him see her according to his fantasy, whether of sadism, voluptuousness, or
danger. And every man who met her, or who watched her on screen, fantasized endlessly about her. The effect worked on women as well; in the words of one writer, she projected "sex without gender." But this selfdistance gave her a certain coldness, whether on film or in person. She was like a beautiful object, something to fetishize and admire the way we admire a work of art.“

老子晾头发

听有意境的。

百家讲坛-传奇王阳明

古今完人。
看看。
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不简单，能够有如此自由的家庭环境，在那样的时代。不过那些时代都比现代好，没啥可说的。

太给力了

冥王。

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今年太奇怪了。从一开年，到最后，发生那么多的巨变……然后形成了某种格局，为了未来而存在的格局；铸就了某种人格，为了未来而成立的人格……线条如此清楚，改变的力量如此强大，没有任何退路。

彻底感受到冥王星深刻的力量，无论人生的那个方面，都经历着那种无法抗拒，无法回头，虽然沉重，却必要和重要，几乎能感觉到接下来即将开始启动的巨大改变……


一开始很慢，很艰难，也有不想改变的东西，但是一旦石头开始滚动，就越滚越快，拦不住，不改变都不行。

似乎一切被回顾被重整，新格局没有成形，却感觉更加自由，而且明年也一定会很艰难地被考验。
仔细想想相关这些的事情都偶然出现，毫无预警，然后都是陡然地，眼看着，却无法做什么地把转向，该结束的结束，该开始开始出现方向。。很深的冥王力量。虽然强大到让人无能为力，却也可靠得毋庸置疑，顺时而变，反而比较容易让人安心。

Lou Andreas-Salomé

What distinguishes a dream from a wish?

"A wish is created through a conscious choice. Dreams, by definition, involve a unconscious mind. Generally, it's better to have the wish granted than to see a dream come true. People may prefer to keep a dream in the world of fantasy. A wish, though it may seem as remote as a dream, represents a real desire."
Am i wishing for something I can only dream of?

One Piece

re-watching One Piece again. my precioooooooooooous

the only anime never lose the real spirit of freedom and humanity.
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"跟你说过多少遍不要拿我的帽子!!"

talking

I'm not talking to you from the point of view of wishful thinking or imaginary craziness. I'm talking to you from a deeper, basic understanding.

book-The Meditations Of Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

The Meditations Of Marcus Aurelius Antoninus
沉思录

by Marcus Aurelius

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found this genre in ancient Roman philosophy.
Stoicism...

this will be a helpful book for me..i feel i will gain a lot from it now...

is this Marcus Antoninus that Marc Anthony? they are both Roma emperor..must be the same person..what an odd thing to know..

He wrote this book for himselfm to carry on daily activities... an interesting Roman man.


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"if thou dost not use for clearing away the clouds from thy mind, it will go and thou wilt go, and it will never return.如果你不用这段时间来清除你灵感上的阴霾；它就将逝去，你亦将逝去，并永不复返。"

gintama

"要我说的话，人这东西是更加真诚的生物呐！痴呆也好，死了也好，留在心里的记忆都是刻在灵魂上的，不管碰上什么都不会消失。我是这么相信的啊！"

"新八：好像很严重 神乐 叫救护车
神乐：（对着天空）救护车！！！！
银：谁让你用这么原始的的叫法啦！"

家乡的老妈妈也在哭泣哦，生你出来可不是为了让你当这种异形的呐，不管是异形也好人也好，让妈妈哭泣的家伙是最低劣的，那个妈妈也请说些什么吧。

Otae: Does a child need a reason to protect something his parents loved?

Gintoki: A samurai doesn’t need a reason to do what’s right. If you want to protect her, you must draw your sword.

Police: Hey you with no helmet: stop right there!
Gintoki: What are you talking about? Do I really need a helmet in this day and age?
Police: Ok, but it’ll really hurt if you fall, you see. I’m worried about you.
Gintoki: It’s all right. I’ve got a hard head.

Gintoki: The country? The skies? You can have them. I’m busy just protecting what’s right in front of me. I don’t know what’ll happen to me in the future, but if something has fallen at my feet, then the least I can do is pick it up.

book-新选组血风录

by Ryōtarō Shiba 司馬 遼太郎

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found it recently. been looking for it since 2000. surprisingly short,those stories. very neat reading. the touches are light and soft in an absolutely hurtful way. typical Japanese style.

Finally understand a little more about the movie-Gohatto 御法度. I may not know much more than I used to, but my understanding has advanced.

movie-银河系漫游指南

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy

Heart Marvin.

Gian Lorenzo Bernini

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南小姐

"我，有一个谁也不让的东西，绝对唯一的、最重要、最重要的东西。我生命中的一切都是由它形 成的，不是用语言什么就能表达清楚的。这种强烈的，炽热的意识。我充满自信，我的这种意识比谁都强，我的这训意识不输给任何人。为了这个而流血，为了这个 而创作。在我画着小时候，因为不能更接近种种意识而时常让我咬牙切齿，我想说的还不止这些，自己想到的不止是这些。' 我永远也无法靠近它'我哭喊、痛苦、负伤，我被自己撕碎，我狂乱，但不管我如何狂乱，这个唯一小东西不曾改变。因此才有新出来的思想，才认识明白更多的道 理。只要你哪怕能感受到我的这种心情的只是百分之一。"

Asura and Indra

马先生说青花瓷歌词

马先生说：

最好的一句是开头，即“素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡”。
谬误最重的一句是“在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸。”
解释：青花瓷自诞生之时迅速成为中国瓷器的霸主，七百年来无人撼动。可瓶底从未书写过汉隶，仅在明崇祯一朝某些青花器身偶写过隶书。
另一处错误是“临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你”。
错误之处在于“宋体落款仅见康雍乾三朝珐琅彩瓷器，而青花瓷器中未见过。

很可爱，大家都很精彩。

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素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半

釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散去到我去不了的地方

天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔

天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意

色白花青的锦鲤跃然於碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记著你
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
在泼墨山水画里你从墨色深处被隐去

开始读马未都先生的博

挺被触动的。

当我到了那么大年纪的时候，还会不会有心情慢慢咀嚼生活中的点点细致呢？

[转]

占星学中所阐释的灵魂伴侣

当灵魂伴侣相遇时，他们的互补性并不会完全实现，而会进一步演进。这两者都已获得了足够的安全感，因此不需要从对方获得一种自我感。唯有如此，他们才准备好相认，合力克服人类关系中不可避免的冲突。

从存有最初的统一出现了分裂及疏散，最后一个阶段则是一个灵魂一分为二。因此爱成为每一半在世间或天堂对于另一半的追寻，这份追寻有时候会变得相当迫切。


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准确地说，这里翻译和表达的灵魂伴侣并不是英文中的soul mate, 而是twin souls, twin flames.

Troubadour

noted

healthy walking

mom attended walking day in city. the seniors are much more healthy than we are.

80 years old

Saturday was grandpa's 80 years old birthday party.

chatted with everyone thru video camera.

2010春节戏曲晚会

wanted.

b&b italia

foam chair

Fifi Lapin

the idea of state is a compromise

to avoid the worst situation in human being, when it is impossible to achieve the best.

yale open course-listening to music

very helpful..delighted..
\\TBC\\

哎呀呀

被几十年不见的老同学劈头盖脸就教训了一顿。

难道我这么脱节？

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"Ughh. Great. What's the point in setting the alarm if I'm going to wake up before it goes off? What a total waste. Now I've gotta shut it off but I don't feel like moving. But if I don't shut it off it will just keep ringing and ringing. Sigh. It makes me tired just thinking about the whole thing. Some mornings are such a drag..."

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===QUOTE===Naruto===

鹿丸：我本来想过着随便当个忍者，随便赚点钱。。。然后和不美又不丑的女人结婚生两个小孩，第一个是女孩，第二个是男孩。。。等长女结婚，儿子也能够独挡一面的时候，就从忍者的工作退休。。。之后，每天过着下将棋或围棋的悠闲隐居生活。。。然后比自己的老婆还要早老死。。。我就是想过这种生活。。。 可是我现在居然跑出来出风头。。。。

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poem - 铜版画

she looks ordinary as any Joe/John Sample walking on a street.. her words were not complicate, nothing deep, no turns and twists....yet embedded in my brain for 20 years...

hope she is still alive somewhere in the world.

千江水映千江月。永思永忆，不离不弃。穿过百亿年，也要流传的简单文字。 一个陌生的普通妇人的，三十年前的诗文。席慕容。


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铜版画 Copper Engraving

by Xi Murong

若夏日能重回山间 If the summer can come back to the mountains
若上苍容许我们再一次的相见 If God allows us to meet once again
那么让羊齿的叶子再绿 Then let the fern leaves turn green
再绿　让溪水奔流 So green Let the streams flowing
年华再如玉 Let us go back to the times of jade once again

那时什么都还不曾发生 When nothing had yet happened
什么都还没有征兆 When there was no sign warned me
遥远的清晨是一张着墨不多的素描 That morning was like a simple sketch
你从灰蒙拥挤的人群中出现 And you appeared from the dark gray crowd
投我以羞怯的微笑 Gave me a shy smile

若我早知就此无法把你忘记 If I had known I could never forget you
我将不再大意　我要尽力镂刻 I would not be careless, I would to carve with all my strength
那个初识的古老夏日 About that old summer day when we just met
深沉而缓慢　刻出一张 Deeply and slowly, make it into a
繁复精致的铜版 Complex and sophisticated cooper engraving
每一划刻痕我都将珍惜 I would cherish every step of carving
若我早知就此终生都无法忘记 If I had known I would never forget you in my whole life

　　1978

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every words she created belongs to every sixteen. 是这么永恒着的十六岁的心情，却是一个四十多岁的普通妇人创造的。

travel-Finland

they have many studio glass artists..very good..

and sauna (wood heated sauna house and ice water in wild)..

they re-model public restroom and bank building into bars...the toilet set, tools and bank vault with a super heavy door... quite interesting..

yale open course-game theory

this is a hard course.

Justice-what's the right thing to do

wonderful lecture..

"utilitarianism..Jeremy Bentham....moral and political policy.. cost-benefit analysis..
what dollar figure should be put on human's life?...to maximize utility?..violating the concern of the minority?..for the greater good?... Thorndike...anything can be captured by sorts of measurement by numbers?....how to measure pleasure?...categorical moral duty...can all value to be translated to one single measurement..."

and this topic...this area...is disturbing. i won't agree this type of topic should be ....educated or openly discussed..if this is the philosophy world i grew up, i will be mad...actually....my mind is exploding..

and i agree with Taoism.. ignore the intelligence in arise, let the concept stays vague, leave the people un-enlightened..


Michael J Sandel, Harvard University. open course.

Hundred Schools of Thought

If i were born in that time.....


i will choose Taoism

writing

i want to resume writing again..i miss that time when the animation and manga are my only obsession.

a simple beautiful world, running on some simple and pure rules of their own..

yale open course-psychology

there is an experiment...the prof played a video, then asked students if anyone noticed any difference..nobody noticed anything..then the prof asked student to pay attention to the table cloth and the food..played the video again..now students saw the difference..

The prof. said, it is common when people attended to something, focus on something, the other things become oblivious..

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i have a question..if the movie-maker constantly change a lots of the trivial settings in a video, put an apple in, take out an plate, switch the flowers, change the plants... knowing nobody will notice it anyway...

does it really have no any affect on people;s brain? will it possible that the audience watching a "changing" setting movie would feel more tired than the one watching a "still" setting movie, becuase they are actually take in more viually information, even tho they "think" they are watching the "exactly" same movie as the other group do? will this group of audience can feel the burden or differences on a subconscious level, if their eye nerves, or whatever brain part, or un-awared-conscious is still receiving the information, even when they are not aware of what the information is...

want to know about this..

world cup -Germany 2

555, Germany lost...

i thought they are gonna win the cup.really!

Germany is like a new Holland!~!

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Germany vs Argentina


this Germany team is simply superb...in many ways.

they are young; they are running non-stop on the field; when people watch through the camera, they always have better numbers of player on the front line, the middle field and the defense area..

they might have no star players, but it makes every team member the center of the game.

the team work is super. they are always aware the position of their members; the corporation and the trust and unselfish is really great.

even tho it is a very young team, but the members are cool and calm, the mental strength is shining on the field..

they shows their sureness, their strength they are sure about in a calm way..

the members drive each other in a strict but trustful way...Germans' right front line has some issues..there were at least two times, when the left front line brought the call to the opposite's defense area, but the right line's player didn't get the right position yet..... one player saw the whole empty right field, he thought about it, and still passed the ball to the empty field..he was like " i will put it there. you get there."...it is fun and interesting to see...

the Germany team has that emperor's air around it.

the very thing moves me is...they play the "full football" i always want to see..they way they play is what Netherland had been renowned for..this year, Netherland gave up what they were..yet Germany pick it up..full offensive, full defensive..ever since the italian's invented the defensive football, the world cup changed..but Germany's game vs Argentina brought the full football's spirit back the 21 century. it is really BEAUTIFUL..

and i like their this year's black shirts..

French Movie - Breathless

made in 1960's. a love story, but weird, ironic, strange, funny way.

a thief fallen love with an american girl. she is a journalist. he killed a cop, steals cars, attack people to steal money, to see the girl.

the girl is not sure she loves him yet. he ask her to sleep with her. she keep talking about her job, her favorite book, another guy (but just friend)..etc..whatever she said, he just asked for sleep with him..there is a long scene in the girl's room. they keep chatting chatting nonsense like that.

the french police finally found her, knowing she is going out with him.

she shows more interest in him now. steal cars, run away with him, meet some of his outlaw friends..then she turn him in.

she told him, she was not sure if she loved him or not. so if she can turned him in, that means she doesn't love him.

he said she is stupid. she made him puke. but he didn't want to run away. he want to stay with her.

then police came. he still refused run away even tho his friend gave him the money and car.

he got shot by the police. he stumblely ran about 200 yard, then fell.

police and the girl are surround him. he said the girl made her puke. made faces like they did playfully in the her's apt, then died.

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forget to write down that look on that girl's face. it flashes in my memory a few times..

her eyes gradually swirled with some sort of darkness, deeper and deeper, on her emotionless face. this was the last scene of this movie.

yale open course-philosophy

DEATH.

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ok..listen to the lecture to this point..i start to believe philosophy (western) arguments don't make much sense, but very sensible, valuable.

rather than leading a way to a thought, it is more like to give you as much as possible confusion, complication, but at the same time, it tells you a way of systematically logically thinking, then you learn how to question, to think, to draw your own conclusion, to however further ends that you can possibly reach in your own intelligence...

is that good? good, and not necessarily be good.
i should learn to write nn essay.

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what's live..do we survive death..duelist (body and soul)..how to define live..and death..

the person just is the soul

as long as the soul exists, i exists.

are soul and body distinct?

does the soul survive of the destruction of body?

no grantee that the soul survive after the body.

maybe s1 to sn results the destruction of my soul

does the soul die after our death? does it survive forever? am i immortal?

the immortality of the soul.

dualism

is body 1 to body n,..the process of destruction of body...somehow causes the destruction of soul1 to soul n, the process of death of soul?

where the soul located?

we are where our bodies are , might be an illusion.

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watched a french movie

in embassy of france.

a movie about wedding. haven't seen European movies for a long while..don't remember which is the last one...in the loop?

Graffiti Area

to be seen

zeller schwarze katz

just to write it down, so i can remember this wine name.

The Sore Feet Song Lyric

From "Mushishi"

by Ally Kerr

I walked ten thousand miles, ten thousand miles to see you,
And every gasp of breath i grabbed at just to find you,
I climbed up every hills to get, to you,
I wondered ancient lands to hold, just you.

And every single step of the way, of pain,
Every single night and day,
I searched for you.
Through sandstorms and hazy dawns i reached for you.

I stole ten thousand pounds, ten thousand pounds to see you,
I robbed convenient stores coz i thought they'd make it easier.
I lived off rats and toads, and i starved for you.
I fought off giants bears and i killed them too.

And every single step of the way, of pain,
Every single night and day,
I searched for you.
Through sandstorms and hazy dawns i reached for you.
I'm tired and i'm weak, but i'm strong for you.
I wanna go home, but my love gets me through.

dream

nothing measurable, but a state of mind.

夏日假日的午后

很热，而阳光入室，让房间敞亮，风吹得树沙沙响，吹起纺纱的窗帘，看着喜欢的东西，读着喜欢的书，想着喜欢的事情，时间慢慢地流过，无上幸福。

哲学标准？

什么是人性？什么是天？

就这样就好了？

what's human nature, what's God? -> The differentiation of Philosophy schools

Papaver rhoeas

Poppy.

虞美人。看起来很漂亮，画起来也很容易看出型。

百家讲坛-永乐大帝

其实之前看《明朝那些事儿〉的时候，最佩服的就是成祖。他功不世出，个性和所背负深深恐惧更是极为有看头。

他终其一生寻找建文帝，在人生的最后岁月里有了侄子的消息，想必他最后总算安心死去；

他刚称帝即修了祭奠的庙，却严严锁住了它200多年，直到清朝建立，才知道他埋葬的秘密是什么；

他只有800人起兵，经过多年与朝廷战争，才最后夺位成功，这样的马上皇帝却不是开国之君，在历史中大概绝无仅有，可不只是政变那种机巧的事情；

他生于元末农民起义的家庭，母亲却是蒙古人，母亲为朱元璋生有两皇子，史书中却没有一笔一毫，被彻底抹杀；

百家讲坛-名相管仲

ok

看非诚勿扰

看江苏卫视的非诚勿扰。我喜欢乐嘉哦。

乐嘉尽说傻话，只有脸好看。

Schrödinger's cat

open the box, you surely know it is dead or alive.

before opening it, you never know it is dead or alive.

the moment you open the box, the many worlds becomes one world. that's the only world you can observe.

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"根据量子力学，未进行观察时，这个原子核处于已衰变和未衰变的叠加态，但是，如果在一个小时后把盒子打开，实验者只能看到“衰变的原子核和死猫”或者“未衰变的原子核和活猫”两种情况。"

".. after a while, the cat is simultaneously alive and dead. Yet, when we look in the box, we see the cat either alive or dead, not both alive and dead."

百家讲坛-白居易

最近怎么刚好凑了一堆唐朝。

百家讲坛-长恨歌

开元、天宝。风流天子。

跟听评书一样，很好听。

也很仰望。

beautiful when read out aloud

看到被读出来，觉得很美丽的一段。


"祗园精舍の钟の声，诸行无常の响あり；
娑罗双树の花の色，盛者必衰のことわりをあらはす。
奢れる人も久しからず，只春の夜の梦の如し；
猛き者も遂には灭びぬ，偏に风の前の尘に同じ。

祗园精舍之钟声，奏诸行无常之响；
婆椤双树之花色，表盛者必衰之兆。
骄者难久，正如春宵一梦；
猛者遂灭，恰似风前之尘。 "


“The central theme of the story is the Buddhist law of impermanence. The theme of impermanence (mujō) is captured in the famous opening passage:
祇園精舎の鐘の声、諸行無常の響きあり。
娑羅双樹の花の色、盛者必衰の理をあらわす。
おごれる人も久しからず、唯春の夜の夢のごとし。
たけき者も遂にはほろびぬ、偏に風の前の塵に同じ。

The sound of the Gion Shōja bells echoes the impermanence of all things;
the color of the sāla flowers reveals the truth that the prosperous must decline.
The proud do not endure, they are like a dream on a spring night;
the mighty fall at last, they are as dust before the wind.
-- Chapter 1.1, Helen Craig McCullough's translation“

我喜欢这样的人。

知道自己心里愿望，生命的宿命，能够忍耐与等待，在自己相信的适当的时候着手，不反悔，不会因为挫折的放弃，虽然是企望的对象，却有高于对方的觉悟。

百家讲坛-刘心武讲红楼梦

想起了十四岁初读红楼梦书，以及刚上大学第一本从大学图书馆书架上拿下来的《红楼梦探佚〉……

百家讲坛-孔子是怎样炼成的

很久没有看百家讲坛了，突然很想看。刘心武的红楼有续，蒙曼的说唐到了玄宗，还想回去看易中天的，看到了孔子，想想对这位老人家竟然也不十分了解。看看看看。

孔子是商王室的后裔。无后的家族，最小的儿子。身长过人。智力高。interesting.

Lecture Room - Confucius.

兴观群怨。

人心是最有趣的社会。

每日一诗

浪淘沙
　　
　　把酒祝东风
　　且共从容
　　垂杨紫陌洛城东
　　总是当时携手处
　　游遍芳丛
　　
　　聚散苦匆匆
　　此恨无穷
　　今年花胜去年红
　　可惜明年花更好
　　知与谁同

poem by OuYang Xiu from Song Dynasty

Holding the wine, I invite the spring wind come to drink with me;
Where the branches of Poplar dangling over the rive bank is the place of east side of the capital city;
There we used to stroll among the flower cluster, holding each other's hands.

Life pressed us in such a bitter rush;
We met and we parted, left endless sadness in our heart.
This year's flower is much glamorous than the last year's;
They will being even more beautiful in next year;
Yet I don't know whom will still be there as my company when the blossom arrives then.

--

i suck at english translation, indeed.

It is kind of idiotic seeing cherry blossom every year. but i do it.

坚持每年去看樱花，简直就是白痴一样，可是不管如何还是会去看，强迫症吗？

变态

变态了，发现自己非常享受故意制造很多反面的东西，来让别人误会，然后带着错误的结论和理念出去晃。

parents are going to south east Asia next month

for travelling.

thinking about it, i am quite lucky. never stress about anything. never stressed about support my family. parents never understand why i want to stay in USA. they merely accept my decision. they always support me no matter what..they are healthy and kind. but mine being in this land..is a destiny...of somewhat that i am not quite sure what yet. i will figure it out. i love my life.

it is good to be back

back to my home. comfy. and peaceful.

一个人有一个家，很简单的平静。

Sakura Matsuri 2010

2010年DC樱花祭

挺好玩的。天气很好，没吃到什么东西，不过看到不少可爱的小东西。

there was a wish tree.. some decorating pink sugar cottons, and many many green pieces of paper on the tree, and many many kind and nice wishes. i wrote down mine, tied it on the tree as well. surprisingly, finding my deepest wish was so simple and it was so easy to form it into a sentence and write it down. i never know that my wish was just that clear in my heart, on the tip of my fingers, and on the top of my mind, and it flow out smoothly...which surprised me. i dare not to wish if not that circumstance. confirmed that i am really having a healthy mentality.

一次愉快的樱花祭。
之后去买了衣服。好几年没有穿过裤子了（听起来很奇怪），买了一条西装裤，看起来还挺不错的。回家上网买了一件很贵的西装外套。我一定是发疯了。

Pet

开会的时候遇到一只小狗。很安静很可爱。害我也想养个什么，狗或者猫，没事儿可以抱着。

went to a lecture about collection

in American Art Museum. they only give three sessions very year. this is the first time i went. three speakers talked about their collection of studio glass and studio furnitures. they showed many very inspiring pieces they have been collected for years.

One collector was talking about one studio bed he and his wife are using. not very comfortable, he said. he also said: but you learned to live with dis-comfortable when you love something. yea, i am learning..and enjoying.

The lecture is called "Collectors' Roundtable".

cat

===quote===

self contained, come-and-go-as-it-pleases, not as sociable as dogs, but they can be sociable give the right circumstance.

Cats may sometimes look like they're daydreamning because they are not focused on one thing in particular, but they are actually quite attentive.

===quote===

8090

a very well-made program. the program is so well-cooked; the people are real ordinary human, and yet the dramas are unreal. truly proved that life is more dramatic than drama. and unlike many other shows around, there people's feeling are pure and raw, with the depth only real human can create. a wonderful program. confirmed.

2010 Spring Cherry Blossom

A walk in Kenwood in a nice afternoon. it could be better. i was quite thirsty. didn't know blossom in Kenwood is so close to where i live.

heartbeat

sometimes, my heartbeat becomes fast without a clear reason. body also becomes weak and heat. like heart attack. it happens without a signal, out of nowhere. it makes me suspect if something is happening, or i am ill? but every time the symptoms are the same,like when falling in love.

noticed

this is what i noticed...i now have set up some lines when interacting with people. i used to be very patience when the others were in their egoist status. but now i have low tolerance for any type of self-center behavior. and i will no longer sit there and calmly waiting for them come to sense. i walk out of it.

Ba zi

learning this now.
back to the college, i actually paid some attention to this area for a while.. i don't know why that i left this one out. it is the most important one in that category yet it took me so long to think about dig it deeper..i do hope i learned this earlier (and many other categories earlier.) ..or not at all. i paid too much attention to the useless things already. make me cynical and lazy, and too optimistic.

found a beautiful garden museum

Hillwood Estate, Museum & Gardens
want to check it out sometimes...looks so peaceful and calm from the pictures..

Seiyuu

Recently falling for 安元洋貴 （やすもと ひろき） Hiroki Yasumoto's performance as seiyuu.

三月的最后一天

很长的三月在阳光中结束了。

Such a long March..i feel i have been through a decade. it is ending with a windy sunny day. great.

ai yamaguchi

ai yamaguchi

山口蓝

love her art...became a fan instantly.

那些江户时代黑头发的少年样的少女..纤弱而洁净的样子，以及特别设定的背景..

==========quote============
浮世绘——山口蓝的现实与虚构
　　江户时代
　　山口蓝所描绘的作品，多为江户末期少女装扮，无一例外有着长长黑发，无表情面孔，青绿色深湛眸
　　子，以鲜艳色彩和纤细线条，形成色彩鲜明的独特世界。其画风深受日本传统版画艺术“浮世绘”的
　　影响，同时以其独特的表现，将现代的波普感觉敏锐地反映于日本审美意识，融合生成“新日本”风
　　格。
　　山巅茶馆
　　山口蓝的作品主题均围绕在一群生活于“山巅茶馆”的年幼少女们身上，她以独特的画风、纤细的描
　　线描绘各种姿势，并以鲜艳的压克力颜料绘出鲜明的色块于帆布上，精致多彩且古典优雅，颇有江户
　　时代浮世绘之韵味。只是特别的是，山口的人物是如同卡通般的大眼娃娃，但却能融合浓厚的日本传
　　统而不显冲突。
　　山口以时代考证为基础，进行了详细的设定来创作她的虚拟世界。对她来说，这些世界是多重的。少
　　女们所生活的彼端的现实世界“山巅茶馆”：由和服纹样受到启发，生发出另一个“寝别世界”；以
　　及，身上佩戴法器的少女们所生活的“神的世界”。山口所描绘的，就是这样完全不同次元的各个世
　　界。
==========quote============

Three Hundred Tang Poems

在书店看到一个版本，读了长恨歌。

英译本的唐诗意外地让人也很感动，而且是从不同的方向而来的氛围。

====quote====
Three Hundred Tang Poems
translated and edited by Peter Harris

Song of Lasting Regret

The Han emperor loved good looks
and longed for a shattering beauty;
For many years he ruled that world
without being able to find one.

The Yang family had a daughter
who had just grown up,
Brought up in the women's quarters.
not known to the outside world.

When heaven begets such a beauty it finds
it hard to throw it away,
And one day she was selected to be
by her sovereign's side.

With just a backward glance and a smile
she was lovely in so many ways
That she left the six palaces's painted ladies
quite without any looks.

...

====quote====

推背图

哎…………好好玩，让我起鸡皮疙瘩！怎么这么厉害，唐朝的哎。

一切世事都早已天注定呐。所谓预言，大概就是有能力看到未来的人说出来的事实罢了呢。。。

强死了。。。吓。


my God, my God, how come i just come across this famous book only till now?!! wow....i am totally thrilled!!!

when i was little, i used to my father talking about this. but it never occur to me to read it. probably because i was too young to care about the fate of the nation, and politics..wow..not just fate...it feels like the ultimate destiny...

that kind of thing..is exactly i am interested into..the secret and doomed fate of the world and the life...the unrevealed and the only answer too all...

thrilled.


网络市面上伪释众多。果然历史还是不能为常人所能胡乱推测。只有在回头看那些已经知道了的历史的时候，对照曾经的预言，那惊人之处才显出有价值。若是想要探究未来，却没有多少意义，徒增烦恼而已。

weather is so beautiful

loving it. look at the sky..strong and clear and beautiful. always wish i can fly..

reading something interesting

i actually wanna translate it... it would be fun, and it answers some of my questions. such as why those things happened those ways when i involve. it would be fun.

i was always living on my instinct and feeling and heart of all these years, not really interested in the worldly world, never like to look at it, involve into it. it was good enough for just surviving, as long as i can enjoy many many things and creations from beautiful minds of human. only deep emotions can move me..

i think i lived as an Aquarius. only as a cappy when i am at work...

somehow i never think there should have a wake up call at all. yet i was not that convinced...now i think i have got it...in a beautiful, sad and costly way..i cost my love to learn that it is time for myself to change.. not saying i am gonna change who i am, not even a compromise, but to give the outside life a balanced attention...a mature reborn is on that way. i can feel the mode switch happening inside of me. it is beautiful and it is strong. i am gonna love it.

Moon in Aqurarius

"moon in Aqurarius brings this person a yearning of being alone. deep thinking, fighting and conflicts in heart and in heart only, an attitude of unwillingness of involving with others. they see too many social activities as vulgarly torture. only being themselves and being at home gives them peace"

"月亮落水瓶，带来的是一种不愿与人群靠近的孤独心。永远想要在内心深处金戈铁马，不与人群的态度，令月亮水瓶觉得太多应酬与交际都是俗不可耐地煎熬，而待在家里做真实的自己才是真正快乐的事情。"
　　

Venus in Aquarius

....

Palm Tree

went to grocery store just for maybe some flowers. ended up with taking a big palm tree back home.

it looks so big in my place. once again, having a place all for myself is great.

looking around the room, one question rises. i don't think i love nature, why i keep buying green plants all the time. interesting.

i want to grow fresh flowers tho. especially peony. imagine big peony flower all the time in the garden, or in the room. must be wonderful.

good mood

in a good mood for working today. odd.

March

what a long March..i can barely stand it any more, and yet it is still in the middle. days drag, one by one..it seems it will never end. this march...is very very long.

It is hurting me. this month.

coffee maker

i wanna a coffee maker someday. want some rich and nice coffee.

now

i don't know what to believe now. the fundamental base of my faith is gone and was proved wrong.

what should i believe and what faith i have from now on?

my brain is totally blank out now. it is a life-changing turning point. i cannot figure out the impact yet. but no good..really no good...

Rare 1602 Chinese Map

This could be fun.

"the first 400-year-old world map in Chinese. This rare 1602 map displays China at the center of the world. It was drawn by Jesuit priest Matteo Ricci (1552-1610), a missionary in China, and measures 5.5 feet tall by 12.5 feet wide. It was designed to be mounted on a folding screen."

一幅1602年由意大利傳教士利瑪竇繪制中文世界地圖。 現在在美國國會圖書館展出。這幅珍貴的地圖是利瑪竇受當時的明朝萬歷皇帝委托繪制而成，地圖上中國位于世界的中心，這是第一幅結合了東西方制圖技術的地圖，也是首次繪制出五大洲的中文世界地圖。

gotta see it.

Graduation

555...what would i do without every week's gintama?

in the beginning, i didn't see it as much..
only when i get to enjoy it, i was told it is gonna be over.

will it come back for season 5 someday?

looking for a good spring

this year seems much more normal than previous years. spring is on time. already loving it.

去Dupont Circle 看了一些私人画廊

最后一家收藏的某位英国女画家的很有政治色彩的画很有冲击力。

出来却忘了画廊的名字。以后找找。

原来不过数年之前,女性画家的作品还在被拒绝和歧视的行列.为什么?想来现在也没好到哪里去.

情人

好多年前有人（天蝎的）曾经说：你适合被别人养着…………不要你的爱，不求你的人，不要你的任何感情和回报，只是养着你，让你什么都不必做，只做你自己，只是存在着就好了，别人只需要偶尔来跟你讲讲话就够了..

也有人说，你就像猫一样，自行其事，不要别人管，也一点都不想管别人的事情，其实非常适合当情人。

适合当情妇啊，想想的确是不适合当主妇就是了，也不适合当妈。本来觉得适合当皇太后，不过后来渐渐的对世事走向人心善恶更加无为无求，连幕后都没兴趣做……可是，我不会share，当普通的情妇也不太可能，除非是十分强大的男人。比起人前风光出入，我恐怕比较喜欢低调的灵魂伴侣。

真奇怪，怎么长成小时候绝对不会接受的东西了。果然人会变。

空手前行

看了看以前的一些朋友们同学们的邮件往来……

不过数年时间，我失去了那么多啊……虽然也知道自己个性有点问题，但是变成了“自己的人生就是不断地从失去中前进“的样子，也非我所愿……而且要这么久才发现……

===

“你为人散漫随意，不会照顾别人的情绪，往往你做出的决定都是自己单方面的决定，不会和别人沟通和交流，会让人感觉你过于自私，所以尽管你不是不留余地的人，却也是不会关心照顾的人。“

是真的呢。
很讨厌自己散漫什么都留不进心里不活在过去也不活在未来只活现在的性格，就算爱过痛过活过欢乐过真诚过，却一点都没有能够沉积在心里，然后继续穿越，在不同的环境，于不同的客观物，一样地爱着痛着活着欢乐着真诚着，以前的一切归零，没有任何包袱地空手前进着，没有经验的存积，这样的生命，完全轻飘飘的……没有任何历史份量地继续……又特别相信宿命……这样的人，自己无法认同，却也没有别的活法可以换……究竟要到什么程度才可以被自己的心记住？究竟要怎样才不会忘？……

理想的女人应该是那种轻轻柔柔把世界绕在指尖上的，女帝那种。

银魂电视要结束了

？
混蛋。

剪头发

周末去剪头发，要一个符合春天的。

孔子著春秋 乱臣贼子惧

遥望――文字和思想有着那样强大的影响力的时代。

心中有着畏惧的存在，是很好的。

青山隐士

朝朝代代都有隐士一样的厉害人物，算计天下的也好，潜心修禅的也好，但图长寿的也好……

现在中国还有隐士吗？

Three apples

the western culture was build up on three apples.
1: the apple and Adam/Eva ------> the religion -- formed the relationship between God and human in western world

2: the apple with Newton -------> modern science -- formed the relationship between human and nature in western world

2. the golden apple and Trojan War ------> heroic complex and sexual addiction --formed the relationship between men and women, extend to family relationship.

西方的文明是由三个苹果开始的。
圣经的苹果：压倒性的宗教理念
牛顿的苹果：决定性的物质文明进程
特洛伊的苹果：渗透性的英雄情结和性心理

世界先是变丑, 然后熄灭

今天怎么突然想起了这一句。

suitcon

我是西装控来的说……………………

GINTAMA IS EVERYTHING

银魂就是一切。

美人如玉

以前看到某处的一篇文字，似乎是桑桑的，专门讲了日语的“不器用”这个词语的好……
经常都在想起“不器用“这个词，真的是无比的贴切，不但意义契合，连表情都和谐的，而且还是从道德经里面演化来的，是有根有底的好词儿。

ぶきよう【bukiyou】

unskillfulnessl;lack of ability;awkwardness
clumsy

钥匙串神秘失踪

奇了怪了……周五回家之后，钥匙就找不到了。难道留在办公室了？那我怎么进的家门？如果在家里，怎么可能遍寻不见？怪。

movie-Breakfast at Tiffanys

突然跑去看了这一部。美国人居然有过那样行为经典的时候。
浮躁的不只是我们，不只是现在。是全部的曲线。人说，希腊罗马文明崩塌的原因是什么，是因为它们厌烦了。
我们都厌烦了。对于自身存在的文明，已经没有兴趣了，只能很urban地带着点微微的嘲讽，善意的冷淡，对自身，对于人心，不想关怀，不想深刻，不再介意。whatever。

movie-up

A delightful story.

78-years-old Carl set to fulfill his wife’s and his lifelong dream of travelling to the Paradise Falls, by tying thousand of balloon to his home.

--

总想要得到自由。但是等到真的得到了的那一天，多半会不知道要拿它干些什么。

愕然

回去读了几篇自己写的仙流……愕然发现，写在当时的故事竟然在影应着自己今日的事情……怎么可以这样……
为什么要去写那么伤人的情节？为什么还要自己来印证？莫名其妙。

BOOK-苏东坡传

BY 林语堂
大学的时候，在图书馆里借到这本来读。多年之间，有找过，没找到。今天找到了。读读看。


The Gay Genius; the Life and Times of Su Tungpo
-by Lin Yutang

I loved this book when i was in college. and recommended it to my father.

Disapointedly, he strongly against the points of view expressed in the book.

hmmm...

just learned the english name is :the gay genius...

this is really a big misleading....

movie-Sherlock Holmes

good. like it.

they have That chemistry. haha

script-wise...there is one thing i don't exactly appreciate..i don't like the clues to be revealed in the end only..i like a clue reveals after another, leading to new riddle, new questions...and then, when it comes to the end, bang, one key element make all the clues make sense. problem resolved. that's the kind of story i like...


--
原来这种阅读倾向算作是“本格派“的特质。

“本格派：又可稱為古典派或傳統派。以推理解謎為主要走向，是推理小說的主流。本格派可滿足以解謎為樂趣的讀者，通常儘可能地讓讀者和偵探擁有同樣線索、站在同一平面。本格派中部份作者，書中會有「向讀者挑戰」的宣言（例如艾勒里），也就是告訴讀者「到這裡你已擁有足以解開謎題的線索」，挑戰讀者是否能與偵探一樣解開謎題。因此，注重公平與理性邏輯，是本類型推理的特徵。“

the universe is romantic.....

...a star can burn for billions of years, but it dies just once and quickly...

...only a few dying stars explode, most expire quietly...

...the collapse of some stars could make biggest bang in the universe...

...some of them shrank so dense that even light couldn't escape...they became black hole...

...there wasn't nearly enough visible mass to hold our galaxies together...there are some other gravitational influence-what we call dark matter....

hauntingly beautiful.

看了kat-tun 2008

演唱会的录影。quite entertaining.

最近有再次腐掉的趋向吗？…………

想要改变了。

想丢掉工作了。

想要能够什么都不要。
……
……

我要自由啊！！

有点喜欢COSPLAY的苗头

很多很赞的照片和行头啊，宇宙一流水准的COS们。

wanted - a good reading

run out of interesting stuff to lose myself into it. a good reading..a good... anything.

Key word: obsession!!

新的一年

新年计划出现，刚好在昨天下午和今天上午，正是所谓的冲动性。
第一，要公司资助设计方面的深造；
第二，解决与那个人的孽缘。