三月的最后一天

很长的三月在阳光中结束了。

Such a long March..i feel i have been through a decade. it is ending with a windy sunny day. great.

ai yamaguchi

ai yamaguchi

山口蓝

love her art...became a fan instantly.

那些江户时代黑头发的少年样的少女..纤弱而洁净的样子，以及特别设定的背景..

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浮世绘——山口蓝的现实与虚构
　　江户时代
　　山口蓝所描绘的作品，多为江户末期少女装扮，无一例外有着长长黑发，无表情面孔，青绿色深湛眸
　　子，以鲜艳色彩和纤细线条，形成色彩鲜明的独特世界。其画风深受日本传统版画艺术“浮世绘”的
　　影响，同时以其独特的表现，将现代的波普感觉敏锐地反映于日本审美意识，融合生成“新日本”风
　　格。
　　山巅茶馆
　　山口蓝的作品主题均围绕在一群生活于“山巅茶馆”的年幼少女们身上，她以独特的画风、纤细的描
　　线描绘各种姿势，并以鲜艳的压克力颜料绘出鲜明的色块于帆布上，精致多彩且古典优雅，颇有江户
　　时代浮世绘之韵味。只是特别的是，山口的人物是如同卡通般的大眼娃娃，但却能融合浓厚的日本传
　　统而不显冲突。
　　山口以时代考证为基础，进行了详细的设定来创作她的虚拟世界。对她来说，这些世界是多重的。少
　　女们所生活的彼端的现实世界“山巅茶馆”：由和服纹样受到启发，生发出另一个“寝别世界”；以
　　及，身上佩戴法器的少女们所生活的“神的世界”。山口所描绘的，就是这样完全不同次元的各个世
　　界。
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Three Hundred Tang Poems

在书店看到一个版本，读了长恨歌。

英译本的唐诗意外地让人也很感动，而且是从不同的方向而来的氛围。

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Three Hundred Tang Poems
translated and edited by Peter Harris

Song of Lasting Regret

The Han emperor loved good looks
and longed for a shattering beauty;
For many years he ruled that world
without being able to find one.

The Yang family had a daughter
who had just grown up,
Brought up in the women's quarters.
not known to the outside world.

When heaven begets such a beauty it finds
it hard to throw it away,
And one day she was selected to be
by her sovereign's side.

With just a backward glance and a smile
she was lovely in so many ways
That she left the six palaces's painted ladies
quite without any looks.

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推背图

哎…………好好玩，让我起鸡皮疙瘩！怎么这么厉害，唐朝的哎。

一切世事都早已天注定呐。所谓预言，大概就是有能力看到未来的人说出来的事实罢了呢。。。

强死了。。。吓。


my God, my God, how come i just come across this famous book only till now?!! wow....i am totally thrilled!!!

when i was little, i used to my father talking about this. but it never occur to me to read it. probably because i was too young to care about the fate of the nation, and politics..wow..not just fate...it feels like the ultimate destiny...

that kind of thing..is exactly i am interested into..the secret and doomed fate of the world and the life...the unrevealed and the only answer too all...

thrilled.


网络市面上伪释众多。果然历史还是不能为常人所能胡乱推测。只有在回头看那些已经知道了的历史的时候，对照曾经的预言，那惊人之处才显出有价值。若是想要探究未来，却没有多少意义，徒增烦恼而已。

weather is so beautiful

loving it. look at the sky..strong and clear and beautiful. always wish i can fly..

reading something interesting

i actually wanna translate it... it would be fun, and it answers some of my questions. such as why those things happened those ways when i involve. it would be fun.

i was always living on my instinct and feeling and heart of all these years, not really interested in the worldly world, never like to look at it, involve into it. it was good enough for just surviving, as long as i can enjoy many many things and creations from beautiful minds of human. only deep emotions can move me..

i think i lived as an Aquarius. only as a cappy when i am at work...

somehow i never think there should have a wake up call at all. yet i was not that convinced...now i think i have got it...in a beautiful, sad and costly way..i cost my love to learn that it is time for myself to change.. not saying i am gonna change who i am, not even a compromise, but to give the outside life a balanced attention...a mature reborn is on that way. i can feel the mode switch happening inside of me. it is beautiful and it is strong. i am gonna love it.

Moon in Aqurarius

"moon in Aqurarius brings this person a yearning of being alone. deep thinking, fighting and conflicts in heart and in heart only, an attitude of unwillingness of involving with others. they see too many social activities as vulgarly torture. only being themselves and being at home gives them peace"

"月亮落水瓶，带来的是一种不愿与人群靠近的孤独心。永远想要在内心深处金戈铁马，不与人群的态度，令月亮水瓶觉得太多应酬与交际都是俗不可耐地煎熬，而待在家里做真实的自己才是真正快乐的事情。"
　　

Venus in Aquarius

....

Palm Tree

went to grocery store just for maybe some flowers. ended up with taking a big palm tree back home.

it looks so big in my place. once again, having a place all for myself is great.

looking around the room, one question rises. i don't think i love nature, why i keep buying green plants all the time. interesting.

i want to grow fresh flowers tho. especially peony. imagine big peony flower all the time in the garden, or in the room. must be wonderful.

good mood

in a good mood for working today. odd.

March

what a long March..i can barely stand it any more, and yet it is still in the middle. days drag, one by one..it seems it will never end. this march...is very very long.

It is hurting me. this month.

coffee maker

i wanna a coffee maker someday. want some rich and nice coffee.

now

i don't know what to believe now. the fundamental base of my faith is gone and was proved wrong.

what should i believe and what faith i have from now on?

my brain is totally blank out now. it is a life-changing turning point. i cannot figure out the impact yet. but no good..really no good...

Rare 1602 Chinese Map

This could be fun.

"the first 400-year-old world map in Chinese. This rare 1602 map displays China at the center of the world. It was drawn by Jesuit priest Matteo Ricci (1552-1610), a missionary in China, and measures 5.5 feet tall by 12.5 feet wide. It was designed to be mounted on a folding screen."

一幅1602年由意大利傳教士利瑪竇繪制中文世界地圖。 現在在美國國會圖書館展出。這幅珍貴的地圖是利瑪竇受當時的明朝萬歷皇帝委托繪制而成，地圖上中國位于世界的中心，這是第一幅結合了東西方制圖技術的地圖，也是首次繪制出五大洲的中文世界地圖。

gotta see it.

Graduation

555...what would i do without every week's gintama?

in the beginning, i didn't see it as much..
only when i get to enjoy it, i was told it is gonna be over.

will it come back for season 5 someday?

looking for a good spring

this year seems much more normal than previous years. spring is on time. already loving it.

去Dupont Circle 看了一些私人画廊

最后一家收藏的某位英国女画家的很有政治色彩的画很有冲击力。

出来却忘了画廊的名字。以后找找。

原来不过数年之前,女性画家的作品还在被拒绝和歧视的行列.为什么?想来现在也没好到哪里去.

情人

好多年前有人（天蝎的）曾经说：你适合被别人养着…………不要你的爱，不求你的人，不要你的任何感情和回报，只是养着你，让你什么都不必做，只做你自己，只是存在着就好了，别人只需要偶尔来跟你讲讲话就够了..

也有人说，你就像猫一样，自行其事，不要别人管，也一点都不想管别人的事情，其实非常适合当情人。

适合当情妇啊，想想的确是不适合当主妇就是了，也不适合当妈。本来觉得适合当皇太后，不过后来渐渐的对世事走向人心善恶更加无为无求，连幕后都没兴趣做……可是，我不会share，当普通的情妇也不太可能，除非是十分强大的男人。比起人前风光出入，我恐怕比较喜欢低调的灵魂伴侣。

真奇怪，怎么长成小时候绝对不会接受的东西了。果然人会变。

空手前行

看了看以前的一些朋友们同学们的邮件往来……

不过数年时间，我失去了那么多啊……虽然也知道自己个性有点问题，但是变成了“自己的人生就是不断地从失去中前进“的样子，也非我所愿……而且要这么久才发现……

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“你为人散漫随意，不会照顾别人的情绪，往往你做出的决定都是自己单方面的决定，不会和别人沟通和交流，会让人感觉你过于自私，所以尽管你不是不留余地的人，却也是不会关心照顾的人。“

是真的呢。
很讨厌自己散漫什么都留不进心里不活在过去也不活在未来只活现在的性格，就算爱过痛过活过欢乐过真诚过，却一点都没有能够沉积在心里，然后继续穿越，在不同的环境，于不同的客观物，一样地爱着痛着活着欢乐着真诚着，以前的一切归零，没有任何包袱地空手前进着，没有经验的存积，这样的生命，完全轻飘飘的……没有任何历史份量地继续……又特别相信宿命……这样的人，自己无法认同，却也没有别的活法可以换……究竟要到什么程度才可以被自己的心记住？究竟要怎样才不会忘？……

理想的女人应该是那种轻轻柔柔把世界绕在指尖上的，女帝那种。

银魂电视要结束了

？
混蛋。

剪头发

周末去剪头发，要一个符合春天的。

孔子著春秋 乱臣贼子惧

遥望――文字和思想有着那样强大的影响力的时代。

心中有着畏惧的存在，是很好的。

青山隐士

朝朝代代都有隐士一样的厉害人物，算计天下的也好，潜心修禅的也好，但图长寿的也好……

现在中国还有隐士吗？

Three apples

the western culture was build up on three apples.
1: the apple and Adam/Eva ------> the religion -- formed the relationship between God and human in western world

2: the apple with Newton -------> modern science -- formed the relationship between human and nature in western world

2. the golden apple and Trojan War ------> heroic complex and sexual addiction --formed the relationship between men and women, extend to family relationship.

西方的文明是由三个苹果开始的。
圣经的苹果：压倒性的宗教理念
牛顿的苹果：决定性的物质文明进程
特洛伊的苹果：渗透性的英雄情结和性心理

世界先是变丑, 然后熄灭

今天怎么突然想起了这一句。